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Yesterday as I was sitting in the bath, bawling my eyes out, I heard "It's the End of the World as We Know It" ...but I didn't feel fine. It was (somewhat) amusing, and VERY appropriate. I even began to laugh through my tears.
Well, it's official. My parents were serious. I will never spend another night in their home. Last night I ended up spending the night at Katie's, so I didn't move in to Drew's until tonight. After work, Katie picked me up and took me to my house, where I finished packing, and said my good-byes...My mom was crying as hard as I was. :'( And then when we left, I was so upset that I made Katie start to cry. Even though tonight wasn't really goodbye, because I need to go back next week to finish packing up all of my crap and move it in to some as-yet-to-be-determined self-storage place, it felt so final. I mean, I am an adult now. And I don't feel any different. Plus, I need to find a place to stay for after the 3 or so weeks Drew is letting me stay with him.
I am VERY seriously considering moving to NY...my best friend and her mother have offered to let me live with them, and it seems like a pretty good option - they are like my second family. Plus, I don't have much going for me here, other than my friends. And if they're true, I'll keep in touch with them. I always pictured myself going back there at some point, and I am at a crossroads in my life anyway...My only concern is that when I moved up to Santa Cruz (only 400 miles away), I didn't do well and had to come home. Of course, things are very different now, and I no longer have a home to go back to, so...should I go for it? Everyone I've talked to has thought that I should, and...it's such a great opportunity, you know?
I'm so overwhelmed. My life has very literally changed overnight. And my brain can catch up. I am just SO grateful that I am lucky enough to have such great friends. (Ones that take me in, and shuttle me around, and help me move, and listen to me cry, and comfort me over and over again, and salvage my birthday, and...I love them so much.) I never thought I would actually have true friends, especially such amazingly wonderful ones.
Well, it's official. My parents were serious. I will never spend another night in their home. Last night I ended up spending the night at Katie's, so I didn't move in to Drew's until tonight. After work, Katie picked me up and took me to my house, where I finished packing, and said my good-byes...My mom was crying as hard as I was. :'( And then when we left, I was so upset that I made Katie start to cry. Even though tonight wasn't really goodbye, because I need to go back next week to finish packing up all of my crap and move it in to some as-yet-to-be-determined self-storage place, it felt so final. I mean, I am an adult now. And I don't feel any different. Plus, I need to find a place to stay for after the 3 or so weeks Drew is letting me stay with him.
I am VERY seriously considering moving to NY...my best friend and her mother have offered to let me live with them, and it seems like a pretty good option - they are like my second family. Plus, I don't have much going for me here, other than my friends. And if they're true, I'll keep in touch with them. I always pictured myself going back there at some point, and I am at a crossroads in my life anyway...My only concern is that when I moved up to Santa Cruz (only 400 miles away), I didn't do well and had to come home. Of course, things are very different now, and I no longer have a home to go back to, so...should I go for it? Everyone I've talked to has thought that I should, and...it's such a great opportunity, you know?
I'm so overwhelmed. My life has very literally changed overnight. And my brain can catch up. I am just SO grateful that I am lucky enough to have such great friends. (Ones that take me in, and shuttle me around, and help me move, and listen to me cry, and comfort me over and over again, and salvage my birthday, and...I love them so much.) I never thought I would actually have true friends, especially such amazingly wonderful ones.