"I'm on the verge I'm on the verge, unraveling with every word..."
I am approaching a very strange time of this year. I am slightly concerned and surprised at how much it is affecting me. Generally I am fine. Ultimately, the right decision was made and carried out pseudo-successfully. A relationship that needed to end was ended in a relatively civil manner. I was once again left with the feelings of being left for someone else, but to a lesser extent. Nevertheless, I have a VERY bitter taste in my mouth that makes me question the entire concept of relationships and other's abilities to be fucking honest.
Last year I was going down to pick up Trent for his first and last visit. I am slightly surprised at how much this seems to be on my mind. I feel like he has been merely an afterthought recently and I am slightly disconcerted by the uneasiness that I am currently experiencing. Thinking about November 1st is horrifying and brings me close to tears even thinking about it. Perhaps I am just naive, but I was not expecting these types of emotional reactions. :-/
I am once again left to think and try to rationalize how I've landed here at this place? When will it go away for real (perhaps never, as displayed by recent events... *sigh*).
Last year I was going down to pick up Trent for his first and last visit. I am slightly surprised at how much this seems to be on my mind. I feel like he has been merely an afterthought recently and I am slightly disconcerted by the uneasiness that I am currently experiencing. Thinking about November 1st is horrifying and brings me close to tears even thinking about it. Perhaps I am just naive, but I was not expecting these types of emotional reactions. :-/
I am once again left to think and try to rationalize how I've landed here at this place? When will it go away for real (perhaps never, as displayed by recent events... *sigh*).