Nothing much
I have had so many thoughts & emotions tossed about in my head these last few weeks I don't know where to begin. I had a very eloquent night earlier this week, but the only internet connection I had access to at the time decided not to work for the evening. So I'm just jotting down a few things.
In a way I have lost someone very dear to me; someone that was gradually becoming one of the most important aspects of my life. I don't know how to deal with how I am feeling now other than to ignore it and hope it fades, but that rarely ever works. Fortunately I have many wonderful friends who have supported me when I needed it, who have been there for me if I needed a shoulder to cry on or a set of ears to vent at. Thank you all; you know who you are.
Even with all these friends around me I am feeling very alone right now. There is a new little spot of emptiness & I still have to figure out just where to move it so it matches the rest of the decor in my soul.
I feel numb.
Time heals most wounds as long as you apply enough of it. 14 nights & 35 vitae should fix this one! Grrr, if only it were that easy, right? I know this one will heal eventually, I just don't know how long it will take. It will get better though.
In a way I have lost someone very dear to me; someone that was gradually becoming one of the most important aspects of my life. I don't know how to deal with how I am feeling now other than to ignore it and hope it fades, but that rarely ever works. Fortunately I have many wonderful friends who have supported me when I needed it, who have been there for me if I needed a shoulder to cry on or a set of ears to vent at. Thank you all; you know who you are.
Even with all these friends around me I am feeling very alone right now. There is a new little spot of emptiness & I still have to figure out just where to move it so it matches the rest of the decor in my soul.
I feel numb.
Time heals most wounds as long as you apply enough of it. 14 nights & 35 vitae should fix this one! Grrr, if only it were that easy, right? I know this one will heal eventually, I just don't know how long it will take. It will get better though.