Nothing could ever explain the way I miss you....
I miss:
You: I miss the way we could talk on the phone for four hours about books and other random things. I miss the way our houses were exactly the same and we used to talk about being in the same room at different times. I miss our stupid chats in algebra about mops and pies and mr.clean. I miss "this is how you pump!" and making you fall asleep by running my hands through your hair. I miss how your mom told me she wanted you and I to get married and everytime we would always make a weird face and secretly think "I wonder what s/he's thinking...". I miss you being my twin.
You: I miss how you were his brother (above) and we talked on the phone 4,000 times before we finally met in person. I miss how we used to call each other chipmunk and squirrel and how we always had the stupidest yet most meaningful conversations in the world. I miss walking around the park and to walgreens and eating those huge hershey bars until we got sick. I miss watching the notebook and crying at the end like little babies. I miss talking to you about my problems and listening to yours. I miss how you were my little brother.
You: I miss our ice wars, our walks every tuesday to taco bell and walgreens, all the nights you spent at my house watching whatever movie we picked up from blockbuster, having pillow fights and talking so much that we missed the movie anyway, how you used to call me on the phone even though you hated it with a passion, how you used to shove that really nasty squishy thing in my mouth whenever we were having tickle wars, how you met me by putting your really little goofy looking cowboy hat on my head at band camp at the begining of sophomore year, how no matter what you always made me laugh and made me feel better and listened to my problems and let me cry. I miss how you were the only person in the world who loved every part of me just because I was me. I could do no wrong in your eyes and I miss that.
You: I miss all our talks about girls are like rocks, and germany, and golfing and all those stupid other inside jokes we had from God knows where. I miss tour and all the time we spent with each other. I miss being your oboe buddy and even though I sucked you still told me I was good and that I could do it. I miss being your sister in soul and all our long talks online and on the phone about guys and other things of the like. I miss going to your house and eating chocolate oreos till we felt like puking. I miss the sadie hawkins dance and all the girls nights we had together. I miss being able to run to you in the hallway and shout "SWEEEEDERLAND!" and you wouldnt think I was a freak. I miss you always understanding and accepting me for who I was.
You: God, I miss absolutely everything about you. I miss the way we talked on walkie talkies because we didnt want to use phones even though it amounted to the same thing. I miss you being just down the street from me. I miss being able to run to your house and just cry in your arms or laugh at something stupid. I miss the way you would stop by after work during the summer just to show me everything you bought and we would laugh about how you bought more things from where you worked than anyone else did. I miss the way we could go to your house and do absolutely nothing and still have fun. I miss our runs/walks in the morning or whenever we did them. I miss daddy patties, midnight swims, talks about country men being the best men ever, gavin degraw music, sock slides in the kitchen, eating snickerdoodles until we fell over in pain, playing parcheesi and talking to your dogs, taking care of your dogs and you taking care of mine, you staying the night at my house just because yours was messy (lmao), making that really weird concoction that ended up being REALLY good, playing mario kart and pokemon snap!, the long drives in your car listening to disney music, winterguard and colorguard and marching band memories....just everything. I miss your presence, your being, your life...even though you are still closer to me than everyone else in the world mentally, i miss being AROUND you.
You: For our weird conversations about operation chair and sour skittles. For all our talks in church and confirmation and how we used to ALWAYS find each other no matter what was going on and then we would laugh at everyone else for not knowing what to do. I miss tour and how you and mellie and I talked for four hours about everything under the stars and came up with golfing and zenland and sweederland. I miss how we could go to subway and talk about squirrels in tuxes in the car on the way there. I miss our 2 am conversations about things I dont even remember but I know they were interesting...I miss how you used to listen to me and how you would always make me feel better.
You: I miss how we used to always be able to talk no matter what time of day it was...all that would happen was you would just look at me in a certain way and we would come to each other and just spill what was on our mind may it be at lunch, on our way to class, in band, in class, or on the phone/over the internet. I think its sad that we only got to really know each other for one year, but I cherish it so much. I miss saide hawkins dance and our races through the bouncy course thing we had to run through (that picture of the 8 of us is still my favorite EVER). I miss how close I was to the rest of your family as well. I miss how our conversations always made me feel uplifted afterwards and how you would always listen to me and what I had to say and we could always make each other feel better.
You: For always making me smile in chemistry and for talking to me online and having weird conversations about missles and kirby. I miss sadie hawkins and how you and laura both told me the same thing and the look on your face when you finally got set up. I miss how you were always so nice to me and so understanding.
You: I miss our duet at solo and ensemble and our amazing night at the Winter Formal sophomore year with Chrisl. I miss our joke about "Door!" and how you comforted me the few times I cried to you about men.
You: I miss being in guard with you and even though sometimes we would get on each others nerves, in the end we always had the same goals in mind and we both loved the guard with an undying passion. I love how dedicated you were to your life and your friends and your work and how you inspired me to become a better person. I miss how we were leaders together for even a short amount of time. I miss talking to you and having you give me logical and sarcastic, yet hilarious feedback.
You: I miss our talking online and how we didnt meet in person for like 8 months yet we talked all the time. I miss our virgo sandwich and captain planet adventure (so much fun!) and how I can still talk to you about absolutely anything.
You: I miss how you were our drum major last year and how dedicated you were to the band. I miss the few times we talked because you always had a view of a situation that I hadnt seen or had refused to see. I miss how fantastic of a person you were.
I havent listed everyone of my friends because that would take an awfully long time, but you get the idea. I will probably work on it more later. I just want you to know that maybe you guys have forgotten these things, or maybe they werent that important to you, but I havent forgotten them and its the things like these that I LIVE for now a days. I remember these things and I go back to arizona and I remember you guys, and marching band, and chemistry class, and mrs. bedene, and lunch and the grassy knoll and MRHS and fucking Taco Bell that was right around the corner from my house on 67th and Deer Valley and ALL THE STREETS AND CITY LIGHTS AND PARKS AND STARBUCKS AND CHURCHES AND PEOPLE OF ARIZONA. God I miss you guys so much that everytime I think about it I break down in tears and NO one understands me or how I feel and I dont blame them but GOD IT HURTS SO MUCH TO BE AWAY FROM YOU GUYS. Arizona changed my life in more ways than anyone can ever even begin to imagine and I dont know how I could ever thank you guys for being apart of it. I love you all with all of my HEART, SOUL, MIND AND BODY and I hope to GOD that I get to see you someday soon because I dont think I can keep living like this. The pain is almost too much to bear sometimes. If I just werent ripped away from everything I had known so fast, maybe it would have been easier.
You: I miss the way we could talk on the phone for four hours about books and other random things. I miss the way our houses were exactly the same and we used to talk about being in the same room at different times. I miss our stupid chats in algebra about mops and pies and mr.clean. I miss "this is how you pump!" and making you fall asleep by running my hands through your hair. I miss how your mom told me she wanted you and I to get married and everytime we would always make a weird face and secretly think "I wonder what s/he's thinking...". I miss you being my twin.
You: I miss how you were his brother (above) and we talked on the phone 4,000 times before we finally met in person. I miss how we used to call each other chipmunk and squirrel and how we always had the stupidest yet most meaningful conversations in the world. I miss walking around the park and to walgreens and eating those huge hershey bars until we got sick. I miss watching the notebook and crying at the end like little babies. I miss talking to you about my problems and listening to yours. I miss how you were my little brother.
You: I miss our ice wars, our walks every tuesday to taco bell and walgreens, all the nights you spent at my house watching whatever movie we picked up from blockbuster, having pillow fights and talking so much that we missed the movie anyway, how you used to call me on the phone even though you hated it with a passion, how you used to shove that really nasty squishy thing in my mouth whenever we were having tickle wars, how you met me by putting your really little goofy looking cowboy hat on my head at band camp at the begining of sophomore year, how no matter what you always made me laugh and made me feel better and listened to my problems and let me cry. I miss how you were the only person in the world who loved every part of me just because I was me. I could do no wrong in your eyes and I miss that.
You: I miss all our talks about girls are like rocks, and germany, and golfing and all those stupid other inside jokes we had from God knows where. I miss tour and all the time we spent with each other. I miss being your oboe buddy and even though I sucked you still told me I was good and that I could do it. I miss being your sister in soul and all our long talks online and on the phone about guys and other things of the like. I miss going to your house and eating chocolate oreos till we felt like puking. I miss the sadie hawkins dance and all the girls nights we had together. I miss being able to run to you in the hallway and shout "SWEEEEDERLAND!" and you wouldnt think I was a freak. I miss you always understanding and accepting me for who I was.
You: God, I miss absolutely everything about you. I miss the way we talked on walkie talkies because we didnt want to use phones even though it amounted to the same thing. I miss you being just down the street from me. I miss being able to run to your house and just cry in your arms or laugh at something stupid. I miss the way you would stop by after work during the summer just to show me everything you bought and we would laugh about how you bought more things from where you worked than anyone else did. I miss the way we could go to your house and do absolutely nothing and still have fun. I miss our runs/walks in the morning or whenever we did them. I miss daddy patties, midnight swims, talks about country men being the best men ever, gavin degraw music, sock slides in the kitchen, eating snickerdoodles until we fell over in pain, playing parcheesi and talking to your dogs, taking care of your dogs and you taking care of mine, you staying the night at my house just because yours was messy (lmao), making that really weird concoction that ended up being REALLY good, playing mario kart and pokemon snap!, the long drives in your car listening to disney music, winterguard and colorguard and marching band memories....just everything. I miss your presence, your being, your life...even though you are still closer to me than everyone else in the world mentally, i miss being AROUND you.
You: For our weird conversations about operation chair and sour skittles. For all our talks in church and confirmation and how we used to ALWAYS find each other no matter what was going on and then we would laugh at everyone else for not knowing what to do. I miss tour and how you and mellie and I talked for four hours about everything under the stars and came up with golfing and zenland and sweederland. I miss how we could go to subway and talk about squirrels in tuxes in the car on the way there. I miss our 2 am conversations about things I dont even remember but I know they were interesting...I miss how you used to listen to me and how you would always make me feel better.
You: I miss how we used to always be able to talk no matter what time of day it was...all that would happen was you would just look at me in a certain way and we would come to each other and just spill what was on our mind may it be at lunch, on our way to class, in band, in class, or on the phone/over the internet. I think its sad that we only got to really know each other for one year, but I cherish it so much. I miss saide hawkins dance and our races through the bouncy course thing we had to run through (that picture of the 8 of us is still my favorite EVER). I miss how close I was to the rest of your family as well. I miss how our conversations always made me feel uplifted afterwards and how you would always listen to me and what I had to say and we could always make each other feel better.
You: For always making me smile in chemistry and for talking to me online and having weird conversations about missles and kirby. I miss sadie hawkins and how you and laura both told me the same thing and the look on your face when you finally got set up. I miss how you were always so nice to me and so understanding.
You: I miss our duet at solo and ensemble and our amazing night at the Winter Formal sophomore year with Chrisl. I miss our joke about "Door!" and how you comforted me the few times I cried to you about men.
You: I miss being in guard with you and even though sometimes we would get on each others nerves, in the end we always had the same goals in mind and we both loved the guard with an undying passion. I love how dedicated you were to your life and your friends and your work and how you inspired me to become a better person. I miss how we were leaders together for even a short amount of time. I miss talking to you and having you give me logical and sarcastic, yet hilarious feedback.
You: I miss our talking online and how we didnt meet in person for like 8 months yet we talked all the time. I miss our virgo sandwich and captain planet adventure (so much fun!) and how I can still talk to you about absolutely anything.
You: I miss how you were our drum major last year and how dedicated you were to the band. I miss the few times we talked because you always had a view of a situation that I hadnt seen or had refused to see. I miss how fantastic of a person you were.
I havent listed everyone of my friends because that would take an awfully long time, but you get the idea. I will probably work on it more later. I just want you to know that maybe you guys have forgotten these things, or maybe they werent that important to you, but I havent forgotten them and its the things like these that I LIVE for now a days. I remember these things and I go back to arizona and I remember you guys, and marching band, and chemistry class, and mrs. bedene, and lunch and the grassy knoll and MRHS and fucking Taco Bell that was right around the corner from my house on 67th and Deer Valley and ALL THE STREETS AND CITY LIGHTS AND PARKS AND STARBUCKS AND CHURCHES AND PEOPLE OF ARIZONA. God I miss you guys so much that everytime I think about it I break down in tears and NO one understands me or how I feel and I dont blame them but GOD IT HURTS SO MUCH TO BE AWAY FROM YOU GUYS. Arizona changed my life in more ways than anyone can ever even begin to imagine and I dont know how I could ever thank you guys for being apart of it. I love you all with all of my HEART, SOUL, MIND AND BODY and I hope to GOD that I get to see you someday soon because I dont think I can keep living like this. The pain is almost too much to bear sometimes. If I just werent ripped away from everything I had known so fast, maybe it would have been easier.