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[randombattlecry]

we're floating weightless
(oh, I didn't ask for this)
but I am not afraid.

I can wake and trust you, walk and believe,
wonder and forget
everything I thought I had:
lonesomeness a badge
sewn onto the sleeve of my jean jacket

I'm collecting them all, these marks of adulthood,
giant handfuls in too-small hands
things are sifting out through my fingers
I may be losing my grip

oh but you can't lose what you never had,
and I never had you.
and I didn't ask for this.
but I am not afraid.
outstretched arms and empty hands:
I'm somewhere in space, but I'm balanced.