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Stressed doesn't even seem to be the right word.
I can't sleep because I am always thinking about the shit I have to do. I work all the time and the one day I had off, I hardly got anything done due to not being able to because I didn't go to fucking orientation.
I'm done working on the 30th at the Body Shop and the other night I gave my two weeks notice to Gap Kids. I almost started to cry. I couldn't tell if it was because I was genuinely sad about leaving the store or because I realize I'm not going to have any money or because that's one thing checked off the list but realizing I have a list down to my knees of other things I have to do.
I applied for the dorms and they sent me a letter telling me they received my application but can't do anything with it until I pay the $20. and I need to come up with $50 for orientation on the 5th of January. My paychecks will not be that good, I can tell you that right now.
I need to get a computer. I need to pay these fines so I can actually get a dorm and go to orientation. I NEED TO PAY FOR SCHOOL AND BOOKS but without a co-signer for my loan, that's impossible. My parents can't co-sign, they've got horrible credit and I don't know anyone else with decent credit to co-sign.
Oh yeah, I found a flight from Atlanta to Akron-Canton for $104. That's not bad. PS, I'm driving down with Jessica to Georgia on the 3rd to help her move in and then I was going to fly back on the 7th. riiiiight but I have orientation on the 5th so I'd have to come back on the 4th. Does it seem worth it? It totally is but I don't know if I'll have the money now.
I got off at 4 today and I couldn't even stand straight at the end of my shift because I am so tired. I started to cry sitting on the bench waiting to go home. I sat there for over an hour waiting and I just cried. I feel like there is so much shit I have to do but I can't do a damn thing about it.
I am just mentally and physically exhausted. and I don't know what to do.
and I put a fucking rubber band in my hair at work today because I didn't even have time to shower this morning so a messy, dirty ponytail is better than it being down and I just ripped it out and thought to myself, "I'm a fucking idiot for doing so."
I can't sleep because I am always thinking about the shit I have to do. I work all the time and the one day I had off, I hardly got anything done due to not being able to because I didn't go to fucking orientation.
I'm done working on the 30th at the Body Shop and the other night I gave my two weeks notice to Gap Kids. I almost started to cry. I couldn't tell if it was because I was genuinely sad about leaving the store or because I realize I'm not going to have any money or because that's one thing checked off the list but realizing I have a list down to my knees of other things I have to do.
I applied for the dorms and they sent me a letter telling me they received my application but can't do anything with it until I pay the $20. and I need to come up with $50 for orientation on the 5th of January. My paychecks will not be that good, I can tell you that right now.
I need to get a computer. I need to pay these fines so I can actually get a dorm and go to orientation. I NEED TO PAY FOR SCHOOL AND BOOKS but without a co-signer for my loan, that's impossible. My parents can't co-sign, they've got horrible credit and I don't know anyone else with decent credit to co-sign.
Oh yeah, I found a flight from Atlanta to Akron-Canton for $104. That's not bad. PS, I'm driving down with Jessica to Georgia on the 3rd to help her move in and then I was going to fly back on the 7th. riiiiight but I have orientation on the 5th so I'd have to come back on the 4th. Does it seem worth it? It totally is but I don't know if I'll have the money now.
I got off at 4 today and I couldn't even stand straight at the end of my shift because I am so tired. I started to cry sitting on the bench waiting to go home. I sat there for over an hour waiting and I just cried. I feel like there is so much shit I have to do but I can't do a damn thing about it.
I am just mentally and physically exhausted. and I don't know what to do.
and I put a fucking rubber band in my hair at work today because I didn't even have time to shower this morning so a messy, dirty ponytail is better than it being down and I just ripped it out and thought to myself, "I'm a fucking idiot for doing so."