blargh....
im weird.....but sometimes i miss the days of being lonley and being locked in my room watching countless hours of anime and hentai.....those days were great. i was sad and depressed and going to the arcade alone was great....i use to smoke alot and sometimes drink alot in my room....maybe i dont miss that....i hate smoking and drinking now. i feel so old now....it's crazy to see how much ive changed and calmed down...i thought the day would never come....but here i am....calm as can be. i ended up with a guy i was hesitant to date....but fell hopelessly in love with him....and it's the best feeling. i just feel really boring now....i bore myself. no more days of multi color hair or piercings....now im just the thing i once despise. a normal plain person decked out in polo threads....i turned into a prep. =( i dress like one now too....and i didnt even intend to try.
i also feel so tired emotionally, metally, and evey other way you could think of....i need to get away. so far from this place....so many things keep me here....so i break even more apart...until one day i crumble into dust. i wish i sometimes could run and hide from everything and everyone....but each day i try to keep in good spirits and maintain a balance....but im sick of it. i think im gonna run away....think its time for a visit to the place that brings me peace. i just need to get away.....
but for now...i'll think of lovely davey havok.....how i wish i could hump his face...hehe.....im weird. so yeah lot of people tell me he's gross....but i think its his voice that makes me melt into a ball...time to go for a ride and listen to AFI....and hopefully drift away from it all. and best of all.....hopefully my vote today didnt go to waste....
i also feel so tired emotionally, metally, and evey other way you could think of....i need to get away. so far from this place....so many things keep me here....so i break even more apart...until one day i crumble into dust. i wish i sometimes could run and hide from everything and everyone....but each day i try to keep in good spirits and maintain a balance....but im sick of it. i think im gonna run away....think its time for a visit to the place that brings me peace. i just need to get away.....
but for now...i'll think of lovely davey havok.....how i wish i could hump his face...hehe.....im weird. so yeah lot of people tell me he's gross....but i think its his voice that makes me melt into a ball...time to go for a ride and listen to AFI....and hopefully drift away from it all. and best of all.....hopefully my vote today didnt go to waste....