can you make sense of my head?
My life needs sorting out so I thought I’d talk through it here with you all I warn those who read my lj/od that this will be the same but what’s a girl to do?
So I’ve left university with a good degree and I need to decide where to go from here, do I become a normal bod with a job that is completely unrelated to psychology and my first degree or do I settle in my decision to become a psychologist etc
I’ve always vowed that I would help myself before helping others and I think I’m nearly at that point, I’m not recovered because I still have the urges, the thoughts and all the rest but I’m nearly there, I have been low at points but not the crushing blackness that I used to feel hasn’t happened in a while and hopefully won’t happen again. I am quite untriggerable and don’t think that helping people would set me off on a shitty path again, mind you that often doesn’t mean much. So I have in my head decided to look at masters where I can then go on and practice in a not so specialised field of mental health at the moment there is nothing saying that later on I can’t then move to clinical psychology.
So I’m looking at courses I want to be in London as I loved spending time there this summer and that’s were I want to go after my year in Dubai.
And here is the problem a lot of the courses require a lot of practice etc before specialising and im only looking at masters. Its looking more and more unlikely that I will be able to find a job based in Dubai with a psychology background to it so I’m then on a gap year earning money and trying to find a job suitable for me when I get back to England.
I know fate will take its course and what happens will happen it’s just so hard to know what the right choice is, I know what I don’t want and that is to look back in ten years and be miserable with my life regretting my decision and to be powerless to change it,
I want to be happy and live life to the full who knows when things will go wrong; who knows what will happen tomorrow, so I need to set targets:
I want to loose weight in a healthy way my bmi is 22 and something, I know its not overweight but I feel fat my goal is to have a bmi of 20, this involves losing between 7 and 10 kilos and I want to achieve it by christmas
I want a job that I enjoy that is transferable if it’s a psychology job brilliant if not I just want to have a laugh and enjoy myself get paid to do something that I enjoy,
I want to do a new thing each week it doesn’t have to be expensive or something that I have never done before but just get out there and see what the world has to offer, try new things and go from there, get up early one day go to the beach, go eat some yummy food, learn a new skill etc,
From me
xoxoxox
So I’ve left university with a good degree and I need to decide where to go from here, do I become a normal bod with a job that is completely unrelated to psychology and my first degree or do I settle in my decision to become a psychologist etc
I’ve always vowed that I would help myself before helping others and I think I’m nearly at that point, I’m not recovered because I still have the urges, the thoughts and all the rest but I’m nearly there, I have been low at points but not the crushing blackness that I used to feel hasn’t happened in a while and hopefully won’t happen again. I am quite untriggerable and don’t think that helping people would set me off on a shitty path again, mind you that often doesn’t mean much. So I have in my head decided to look at masters where I can then go on and practice in a not so specialised field of mental health at the moment there is nothing saying that later on I can’t then move to clinical psychology.
So I’m looking at courses I want to be in London as I loved spending time there this summer and that’s were I want to go after my year in Dubai.
And here is the problem a lot of the courses require a lot of practice etc before specialising and im only looking at masters. Its looking more and more unlikely that I will be able to find a job based in Dubai with a psychology background to it so I’m then on a gap year earning money and trying to find a job suitable for me when I get back to England.
I know fate will take its course and what happens will happen it’s just so hard to know what the right choice is, I know what I don’t want and that is to look back in ten years and be miserable with my life regretting my decision and to be powerless to change it,
I want to be happy and live life to the full who knows when things will go wrong; who knows what will happen tomorrow, so I need to set targets:
I want to loose weight in a healthy way my bmi is 22 and something, I know its not overweight but I feel fat my goal is to have a bmi of 20, this involves losing between 7 and 10 kilos and I want to achieve it by christmas
I want a job that I enjoy that is transferable if it’s a psychology job brilliant if not I just want to have a laugh and enjoy myself get paid to do something that I enjoy,
I want to do a new thing each week it doesn’t have to be expensive or something that I have never done before but just get out there and see what the world has to offer, try new things and go from there, get up early one day go to the beach, go eat some yummy food, learn a new skill etc,
From me
xoxoxox