do we serve a purpose or purpose we serve?
O SHOOT.. finally got me a live journal.. then keeping all the shit i think of in my head. Yea, anyways just got off the phone w/ matt(hes soo adorable.. i love him)...anyways my dads a beast and i hate him(the beast).. he needs to die and go to hell, abusive ass bitch >:o...yea so.. i hear today from my friend how shes pissed b/c she finally got grounded for the first time in her life,OMG what a big ass deal..so she goes on telling me about how her life sucks and shit, and how she wants to kill her self, and how shes going out of her mind,..and she tells me i don't know what it's like.. fuck that, she isn't even able to comprehend what me and my sister go threw..shes not the one that gets the shit beat out of her for not bringing in the trash can.. i'm soo tiard of hearing ppls shit about how bad they got it, when there fucking rich and have everything they've ever wanted..w/e it pisses me off....i'm soo happy though,, i;m hangingout with my boyfriend, on friday, going to garretts show at his house!yea soo about my boyfriend, i've liked him for a few months, and hes only liked me recently so naturaly i like him alot more then he likes me and i told him that.. but on sat,, we were supposed to hang out and chill all day..ok no..not at alll he ends up going to the movies with his ex girlfriend.. not kool and on top of that he kissed her.. not biggy but it pissed me off, but sense i'm a really weak person when it comes to somthing like that i forgave him and we were kool and then he was thinking about us the other day and didn't know if it was gonna work.. so yea all that matters is that were kool now and i'm happy! so blahdy blahdy blah,, but i still have cam on my ass always starting shit about how i "lead him on" and now there noting,, and how i'm difficult and stubborn and shit..just b/c i guess he still wants to be with me.. well hes gay and he'll get over it, hes the one whose kicking all of his friends outta the band and expecting everything to be ok..did e have a real reason to kick miles out of the band on first? no i don't think so.. who the hell does that to there friends..to make a long story ahort we got in a fight over this shit.. and i spoke my mind about the band.. and how he wants it to go somewhere.. though it's not going to.. they cant keep a bassist and no gigs and only have 2 songs.. and cam says he knows how to run a band.. bull shit..hes pretty gay right now..i dunno what is up with me and these damn periods>>>>>>.........<<<<<<<<<<<<< it's pretty gay. now about this weekend.. FUN TIMES AT PIN BOYS, how does this work. i'm drunk but still i am the one taking care of amber(little girl) till 2 am.. how gay and on sat hudson stayed the night.. wow was that fun,, to bad we were up till 8 am messing with him.. poor guy he got his nails painted haha.alrighty well i'm to bed to wake up to another day of hell!<33matt<33