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Out of all the boys, you're not like the others
From the very first day, I'd knew we'd be lovers
In my wildest dreams, my darkest desires
Would I declare to you your love takes me higher
Just when we both thought our lives were set in stone
They shone a light and brought us together
We are two in a million
We've got all the luck we could be given
If the world (the world) should stop (should stop)
We'll still have each other
And no matter what (no matter what)
We'll be forever as one
Its a crazy world where everythin's changin'
One minute you're up and the next thing you're breakin'
When I lose my way and the skies they get heavy
It'll be okay the moment you're with me
No one would have guessed we'd be standing strong today
Solid as a rock and perfect in every way
We are two in a million
We've got all the luck (the luck) we could be given
If the world (the world) should stop
We'll still have each other
And no matter what (no matter, no matter what)
We'll be forever as one
i had a talk with a bunch of friends yesterday, as well as today. about almost everything. about life, love, friendships, and my personality....i agree. i need a clone, so i won't be alone. there are so many people that i can get along with, but there are so many unwilling to try. why is it that i get along better with guys? that doesn't look good on my behalf. i made this new friend, his name is matt, its funny how he nows where im at. its good to make a new friend every once in a while who understands or relates perfectly to me. same goes for patrick. i can tell him almost anything...the only thing is, whenever we talk, i so badly just want to jump on him and start kissing him and just......uhhggggggg OMG he is so damn sexy. everthing he does just turns me on. well, him and i are very different when it comes to things like that. im way more aggresive than he is, which can be good. but i can't get any "satisfaction". i usually get what i want, and with him, i have to try way harder, and then i don't get it. that's good i guess. but, it sux....haveing this craving for a great sex story! i crave it so much it hurts! its great to know he respects me, but since when does it matter during sex? ha ha ha. okay, i'm speaking with the wrong head (yes, that would only make sence if i was a dude, but 'twas Barney who taught us to imagine...) i think if patrick wasn't so good looking, i wouldn't have this problem. sometimes i have to just stop listening to him cuz i get so turned on, and i know he wouldn't give in, but its hard cuz everything he says matters so much to me....ugrrrr he's so perfect for me.......(-: i LOVEEEEEEE IT!!! i hope every first anything with him is like a dream. it has been so far...i know i'm in LOVE!
SERIOUSLY! HOW CAN I STOP MYSELF FROM BECOMING UPSET WHEN I DON'T GET WHAT I WANT??? I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH SEXUAL REJECTION....IT'S LIKE A DRUG. IT'S MORE ADDICTING THAN TABACCO.....I'M SURE OF THAT...I DON'T KNOW HOW TO RID THIS STUPID CRAVING....HELLLLLLLLLLLPPPP!!! I DIDN'T THINK IT'D BE SO HARD........THIS IS THE BEGINNIG TO A LONG JOURNEY...