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Dang, it's been forever since I've posted....
So much going on it is not even funny.
I had a hearing before judicial a couple weeks ago to answer to the alcohol violation and the assault/endangerment violation. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, they tried to charge me with assault against myself. Evidently the whole reason I got taken to the hospital was because they thought I had tried to kill myself by OD'ing on my pills. Well, the results are in. They dropped that assault charge. I did however get busted on the alcohol violation. Knew I would. All I got pretty much was conduct probation. I can live with that.
As if that weren't enough....I had another incident. This time the impulse was to borrow a friend's car and drive all the way to freaking Augusta. I had another meltdown when I got there and was also going through withdrawl because I hadn't had my medicine in almost two days. Yeah, not cool. Thank God for good Christian peoples though. A friend called another friend of his that was in the area. He and his family kinda took care of me til I could go home. Still felt rotten though because I hurt a roomie person again. NOT COOL. Because they're cool people and they're having to put up with my crap, even if it is something I'm not in total control of.
Doctor has decided I've been having episodes of what he calls "hypomania". Which I think pretty much means I have some mild form of bipolar-ness. So now I am on a mood stabilizer. Yay....ok, not. But I'm out of options. As it is, because of this junk, I've had to withdraw from a class completely, and I'm behind in all of my other classes. Right now I'm just trying to pick up the pieces......
I also think maybe I'll avoid the party scene for a while. Not like I was that much into to begin with.....but I mean, I just seem to do stupid shit sometimes. And the whole alcohol thing. That's a good part of the reason. Not so much being drunk....but the things I seem to do...and at a party if there are people around that I don't know, I give the wrong impression. Or they try things. Either one isn't good. I made a promise to myself and others that I would watch my alcohol. I plan to keep that promise.
Right now I'm just trying to survive.....so far it's working. We'll see how it goes.
So much going on it is not even funny.
I had a hearing before judicial a couple weeks ago to answer to the alcohol violation and the assault/endangerment violation. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, they tried to charge me with assault against myself. Evidently the whole reason I got taken to the hospital was because they thought I had tried to kill myself by OD'ing on my pills. Well, the results are in. They dropped that assault charge. I did however get busted on the alcohol violation. Knew I would. All I got pretty much was conduct probation. I can live with that.
As if that weren't enough....I had another incident. This time the impulse was to borrow a friend's car and drive all the way to freaking Augusta. I had another meltdown when I got there and was also going through withdrawl because I hadn't had my medicine in almost two days. Yeah, not cool. Thank God for good Christian peoples though. A friend called another friend of his that was in the area. He and his family kinda took care of me til I could go home. Still felt rotten though because I hurt a roomie person again. NOT COOL. Because they're cool people and they're having to put up with my crap, even if it is something I'm not in total control of.
Doctor has decided I've been having episodes of what he calls "hypomania". Which I think pretty much means I have some mild form of bipolar-ness. So now I am on a mood stabilizer. Yay....ok, not. But I'm out of options. As it is, because of this junk, I've had to withdraw from a class completely, and I'm behind in all of my other classes. Right now I'm just trying to pick up the pieces......
I also think maybe I'll avoid the party scene for a while. Not like I was that much into to begin with.....but I mean, I just seem to do stupid shit sometimes. And the whole alcohol thing. That's a good part of the reason. Not so much being drunk....but the things I seem to do...and at a party if there are people around that I don't know, I give the wrong impression. Or they try things. Either one isn't good. I made a promise to myself and others that I would watch my alcohol. I plan to keep that promise.
Right now I'm just trying to survive.....so far it's working. We'll see how it goes.