the fat man walks alone...

[random_lowey]

i cant stop sneezing. it sucks. i hate being sick. i just bullshitted with my mom for like 2 hours. thats always fun. i dont have to work tomorrow....woot woot! im so happy. all ive been doin lately is workin. i hung out with my friends this weekend but i really havnt been able to lately. i need to get paid...bad. i owe char $25...and i need gas money. im sick of not bein able to go places b/c i have to save gas...TO GO TO WORK. fuckin a! i talked to frosty today....were arite now. like were still talkin and stuff. he is seriously like....such a good best friend...after all this crap...hes still thinkin of me and how i feel. and he shouldnt. much love frosty <333333. and i also talked to ryan...im not really sure whats better and whats not. it was soooooooo ocward...i dunno. i almost give up...bah! school tomorrow. i dont wanna go. as usual. i feel like crap....but im gonna try to tuff it out. lol.

do you wish you had the courage?
just to press a little harder next time you angry?
maybe give your razor the time of day?
do you flinch at the pain?
or does your body tingle at the rush of adrenillin...
like mine does?
are you afraid that one day...you'll press harder and harder
just to have that feeling
and its gone...you cant feel it
like a drug...it gets you high
and then it stops...
and your so mad. now what to do?
press a little hared?
ya
then everything goes numb...and you cant understand y...
where your special feeling?
y cant you stand?
y cant you see?
has it finally gone to far?