so....imma kinda stoned.

[random_gigglez]

but anyways, I*m exahusted, I can't even hardly walk. I spent all day saturday moving...from 10AM until 5AM then stopped to sleep four hours and got back up to finish moving Alicia. Then I*ve had to clean the new place, because its really disgusting. Plus school all day today, I*m just so tired I can't sleep. Which really sucks. Aarons been working 15hour days for a week now. So I haven't really seen him either. I start work tommorow. Woohoo. I got a job as server/hostess/bartender at this very posh resturant in Baxter Village. Its this new communtiy between fort mill and tega cay, with its own everything. They*ve got there own post office, and library, and ymca, and even starbucks. They spent all this money to live there just so they don't have to drive anywhere, its crazy. At my new job there dinners start at 17 dollars....and only get higher. Apparently we are going to have to tip pool because the customers tip so well that the employees are fighting over who gets to wait on who. Can't wait for the money, but i*ve been outta work for a really long time so i dunno if I*ll be able to just jump right back into the swing of things....its gonna take me awhile.

On a completely different subject. I think I have a crush on someone. And I don't really understand. I really love aaron.....and i know that as fucked up as our lives are, we will stay together. I have no doubt in my mind. But then i can't get this person outta my mind either. Always there. I can't help thinking what there doing right now. I can't help thinking how differently my life would be had I just did that one little thing differntly years ago. Would I be them or would I have ended up with aaron anyway? I don't think I would ever act on this crush. It wouldn't be worth losing aaron over. But I still can't help but wonder what if?