ramblings....
you ever feel like i dunno....like nothing really matters. Like everything you used to believe in everything you used to defend and fight for in your life is really just not even worth your energy. Not worth the time and thought you put in it before. All your goals......all your dreams were just frivolous wishes. nothing more....just daydreams, all of it. The people you expected to be around for an eternity are really just passing through your life....eventually they will all be gone....and you*ll be left alone. You just wake up one day and realize the people you loved once have stopped calling, stopped visiting, and stopped caring all together. And you ponder what happened? When exactly did your life get so sad? When did people not care anymore you weren't at a party? When did you grow up exactly....and decide that staying home watching csi...was more important than dieselboy? When exactly were all my childish hopes taken away? And now I have to wonder whats the point? Whats the point pretending everythings okay? Why should I keep smiling...when i just want to sleep away my day? I can't find anything to hope for...dream for...wish for anymore...I just don't see a point to any of this.