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[random_fat_bird]

I'm having a low day. The past few weeks have been crap. I'm feeling ever more paranoid that things are going desperately wrong. I'm pondering action that I wouldn't normally ponder, but unless I start to feel a bit better in myself I may have to. For my own sanity and peace of mind I'm going to have to make a decision or have a rant. I don't want to have to rant, mostly because I'm avoidant. I'd rather avoid the problem than have to confront it. I don't have the energy and will to meet this head on. Thus, I'm stuck with either ignoring it and hoping for the best or just cutting clean.

I'm also pondering making my journal friends only. For no other reason than to ease my paranoia.

Something tells me my antiserpressants aren't working too well:(