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too stubborn. we're too goddamned stubborn for our own fucking good. and nothing is going to get better. because it just seems to get worse every day. things can't keep going this way. i can't continue to be a part of something like this if no efforts are made for improvement. but what's going to lead to improvement? communication. too bad we both have too much goddamned pride to open our goddamned mouths. actually, i've tried. but i feel like it doesnt matter. and i say things to be reassuring. but i feel like that doesn't matter either. nothing i say seems to matter because she's gonna let doubt and fear get in the way anyway and create this barrier. and i can't get through it on my own. and the bigger the barrier she creates, the bigger one i will create.