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Okay I don't really know what to say but I just wanted to let you all know whats going on. Firstly, I'm sorry I haven't finished the sequel to my Stevie/Lamps fic but I honestly have been too busy. And I know by now you probably think I'm just really unreliable and never do any of the fics or anything I promise to but this one honestly isn't just me being lazy.
Basically I've had a really really really shitty week. I wont go into loads of detail but last week I had to call an ambulance for my mum because she started throwing up blood. She had to have 2 emergency operations and 4 blood transfusions but thank god she's ok. She was in hospital for over a week though and even though my dad took a few weeks off work I had to help him to look after my little brother, do cooking, cleaning, shopping etc. and try and keep on top of my coursework and everything at college. And obviously I was up the hospital every evening as well. So it was pretty stressful. Then yesterday we found out my mum could come home today which was great but then that night I had a huge argument with my dad.
He annoys me all the time anyway, especially when I have to spend alot of time with him, but with all this stress as well by this time he was actually doing my head in. We'd been arguing anyway but no more than usual. But then last night he found out I'd been self harming. I wont bother telling you about the argument but it just ended up with us screaming at each other and it was really bad. I know this just sounds like I'm some spoilt teenager or something but he really doesnt understand at all. I think he just thinks its for attention because most of the time when I'm round him (which isn't normally often) I'm quite happy. But its more when I'm on my own. My moods always seem more extreme when I'm on my own for some reason. I don't even self harm that often and I'm not depressed or anything. Most of the time I'm fine but just now and again I get so angry or upset or whatever and just do it.
Today my mum came home but she's still got to rest loads obviously so I'm still trying to do loads of housework and stuff. My dad hasnt told her about the self harming thing yet.
I'm probably rambling now. But yeah. So basically everythings kind of getting back to normal now so next time I'll probably be back to my normalish slightly weird, fangirl self. And I'll try and finish the fic ASAP but I can't really concentrate on writing at the moment.
But yeah after one of the worst weeks of my life, I'm now ok =] But I just wanted to let you know whats been going on.
Laura
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Basically I've had a really really really shitty week. I wont go into loads of detail but last week I had to call an ambulance for my mum because she started throwing up blood. She had to have 2 emergency operations and 4 blood transfusions but thank god she's ok. She was in hospital for over a week though and even though my dad took a few weeks off work I had to help him to look after my little brother, do cooking, cleaning, shopping etc. and try and keep on top of my coursework and everything at college. And obviously I was up the hospital every evening as well. So it was pretty stressful. Then yesterday we found out my mum could come home today which was great but then that night I had a huge argument with my dad.
He annoys me all the time anyway, especially when I have to spend alot of time with him, but with all this stress as well by this time he was actually doing my head in. We'd been arguing anyway but no more than usual. But then last night he found out I'd been self harming. I wont bother telling you about the argument but it just ended up with us screaming at each other and it was really bad. I know this just sounds like I'm some spoilt teenager or something but he really doesnt understand at all. I think he just thinks its for attention because most of the time when I'm round him (which isn't normally often) I'm quite happy. But its more when I'm on my own. My moods always seem more extreme when I'm on my own for some reason. I don't even self harm that often and I'm not depressed or anything. Most of the time I'm fine but just now and again I get so angry or upset or whatever and just do it.
Today my mum came home but she's still got to rest loads obviously so I'm still trying to do loads of housework and stuff. My dad hasnt told her about the self harming thing yet.
I'm probably rambling now. But yeah. So basically everythings kind of getting back to normal now so next time I'll probably be back to my normalish slightly weird, fangirl self. And I'll try and finish the fic ASAP but I can't really concentrate on writing at the moment.
But yeah after one of the worst weeks of my life, I'm now ok =] But I just wanted to let you know whats been going on.
Laura
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