sorry
Ok, that may have been a little bitter.
But I take things rather seriously and when I am hesitant to give out information about myself I trust that people will trust me and respect that decision. I don't do it for any other reason than the fact that I like to know my audience and some things would have been presented differently if I had known my full audience.
I don't use names because I don't think it is necessary. I have this as a way to vent my feelings, not to present tell stories about other people. And that's what that was...a lot of venting. And I was projecting anger about other things into that one particular event (I realize now).
There are a lot of stressful things going on right now, I am feeling awful and last night that was just like ONE more thing that made me think the world was conspiring against me. So I got really out of line.
And I am sorry.
There was really no call for that. If I was so upset, I should have taken my own advice and talked to you. Although, I'm sure you're glad I didn't because it wouldn't have been pretty. But, I finally got more than four hours of sleep which has made me feel much better about the whole thing. And really, I didn't really care that much in the first place.
If you ask a certain co-worker she can tell you that.
Overall, yesterday was a pretty shitty day. I yelled at my mom and sister for pretty much no reason (well, because this whole wedding thing has made me feel I don't exist and I want nothing to do with it) and I feel awful for that too. They drove up here and spent the five minutes they saw me getting yelled at....
Well. I think that is it. I really am so sorry and I hope that you can see that.