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so again its been a really long time since i have updated, i just can't get to a computer with internet, liek i can use the shcool ones like im doing right now but thats only cause no one else is in this room, and my comp at home still isnt set up, and my dad lives like 35 minutes away and it takes a lotta gas and tiem to drive out their so ican't drive out there for just one night. anyway i havea pounding headacher... ouch. and in the last couple days i have been fairly depressed, im sure it has to do with hormones and mood swings and what not but the relization still doesnt really change how i feel it just gives me some patience. So i think all of my friends have basicly ditched, me feel slightly outcasted and unwanted by everyone. i feel like delia nad jason are my only friends left, and i cant see delia and jason has been sick so he has been down for like a week and a half which is really hard on me. The group never hangs out anymore i think they all hate each other. Cody and Brynn and jordan and scott and jessy and kim and desi they all live together and it soudns liek they are all being stupid, cody lost his job, brynn doesnt have to pay rent, jordan makes up stupid rules and expects every one to follow them adn then very likely not going to graduate i dont even think he goes to school anymore, scott doesnt go any more either and he doesnt even go to work, desi doesnt go to school either, well she does but very rarely so she has totally passed up that 10 day thingand i mean she is still gonna graduate cause she has completed everything but, what makes me mad is she never goes to band and i want to do good at state and when she is in band she odesnt play and complains about the piece being stupid. i know its just cause she cant play it. i love desi but since hse has gotten her license she just doenst care baout school anymore, and i wish she would, hell i dont even hang out with her anymore, i dont hang out with anybody, i hate my social life. it use to be soo good last year, we were just one big group of friends and now everbody is off doing stupid things. it makes me so sad i love those memories so much. the bell just rang i get to go home.