Here I go again!!
Do you ever have one of those days that everything seems to be bad... that nothing can happen to make u get happy. Thats how I feel today. Ive been depressed all day and I'm not sure why. All day long Ive just wanted to sit down and cry my eyes out. There's so much I want to do and what I want to happen in my life. As of right now what I want to happen isn't going to and that kind of discourages me from trying to accomplish other things. Life is hard to deal with sometimes and I just dont know what to do when it gets this hard. No one has ever told me how to deal with lifes problems and I need some serious help right now! I've never felt this depressed I dont think. None of my friends help... they wouldnt understand why I feel the way I do so I never tell them. I'm afraid to tell ne one else what Ive been holding in for soo long. All the feelings inside me have finally built up to its fullest and now Im about to explode and everything come out at once. If this happens Im afraid I'll have a complete breakdown bc I dont believe that Im strong enough to handle all the pain thats inside me. My heart is broken into a billion pieces and its my fault so I have to deal with it and I havent yet and that is causing most of my hurt. I just dont know what to do about all this... I dont know who to turn to! I need someone to come rescue me from all my pain and sadness that Ive caused myself.
RandiKay!
RandiKay!