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I'm not quite sure whats wrong with me.
(yes this is going to be a complaining entry)
Me and David have been doing nothing but fighting for the past like week.
It over stupid stupid things too!
One example...
He got ahold of an old friend of his, no big deal. He was going to go hang out with him one day when i was at work, again not a big deal. Well i'm not sure where she came into play but he started talking to the guys girlfriend, kinda weird right? especially since he doesnt know her... So i was like whatever. He said his friend didnt always have his cell phone with him so he texted him from his girlfriends phone sometimes.
Well then for about the next week everytime i asked who he was texting he would say oh my mom...or my friend brett...then i would look over his shoulder, yes i know i was being nosy but as a girlfriend i have that right...anyways, when i would look it would be her and i would say who are you really talking to and he would tell me and be like oh i forgot to say her name or act stupid like he told me when he really didnt.
now if that doesnt look like hes hiding something from me i dont know what does....
So then the other day i asked to see his phone so i could change his background picture and add a cute little welcome message on it and when i was done i, even though i know i was wrong and shouldnt have done it..., went through his texts to see what he was talking to her about and if i should be worried or if i was just being a stupid jealous girl...
i found a message about sun bathing and going topless and how he wished he was the neighbor and if they were going to still pick him up in the morning and that he could just go back to the house and go back to sleep....i felt like i had swolled my heart and was going to throw up all at the same time because all these text messages were coming from her phone...worst feeling in the whole wide world!
so i asked him what the fuck it was about and he said it was chris he was talking to because he was going to pick him up in the morning to hang out after his mom went to work and he had the car and he was joking around about going topless and david being his neighbor...I gave him the benifit of the doubt about it not knowing if it was true.
so then i asked to make me feel better if i could see the text that said it was him on his girlfriends phone....he couldnt find it. and this boy NEVER deletes his texts til his inbox is full....
then the next day when i asked who he was talking to and he said it was her and i went to read what the message said that she sent him he hid it and said it was a secret about a double date for me and him and her and her boyfriend....
do i trust that?
i'm worring myself SICK over this.
i mean am i being stupid and just worrying about nothing
or could it be possible that he really is lying to me?
it wouldnt be the frist time......
god!
what do i do!!??
i just wanna break down and cry.
now i worry about where is really is and what hes really doing all the time. and when he is says hes going to talk to me and then he ignores me for an hour and tells me hes giving relationship advice to a friend....do i really believe that either???
god i hate that i dont trust him.
i try so hard to. i really do.
anyone got any advice as to what to do or say to him?
oh and work really isnt helping in the stress factor.
neither are my bills starting to come in for the car accident...
just more weight on my shoulders.
and lord knows i dont need to gain anymore weight. i'm already fat enough without that all on top...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
(yes this is going to be a complaining entry)
Me and David have been doing nothing but fighting for the past like week.
It over stupid stupid things too!
One example...
He got ahold of an old friend of his, no big deal. He was going to go hang out with him one day when i was at work, again not a big deal. Well i'm not sure where she came into play but he started talking to the guys girlfriend, kinda weird right? especially since he doesnt know her... So i was like whatever. He said his friend didnt always have his cell phone with him so he texted him from his girlfriends phone sometimes.
Well then for about the next week everytime i asked who he was texting he would say oh my mom...or my friend brett...then i would look over his shoulder, yes i know i was being nosy but as a girlfriend i have that right...anyways, when i would look it would be her and i would say who are you really talking to and he would tell me and be like oh i forgot to say her name or act stupid like he told me when he really didnt.
now if that doesnt look like hes hiding something from me i dont know what does....
So then the other day i asked to see his phone so i could change his background picture and add a cute little welcome message on it and when i was done i, even though i know i was wrong and shouldnt have done it..., went through his texts to see what he was talking to her about and if i should be worried or if i was just being a stupid jealous girl...
i found a message about sun bathing and going topless and how he wished he was the neighbor and if they were going to still pick him up in the morning and that he could just go back to the house and go back to sleep....i felt like i had swolled my heart and was going to throw up all at the same time because all these text messages were coming from her phone...worst feeling in the whole wide world!
so i asked him what the fuck it was about and he said it was chris he was talking to because he was going to pick him up in the morning to hang out after his mom went to work and he had the car and he was joking around about going topless and david being his neighbor...I gave him the benifit of the doubt about it not knowing if it was true.
so then i asked to make me feel better if i could see the text that said it was him on his girlfriends phone....he couldnt find it. and this boy NEVER deletes his texts til his inbox is full....
then the next day when i asked who he was talking to and he said it was her and i went to read what the message said that she sent him he hid it and said it was a secret about a double date for me and him and her and her boyfriend....
do i trust that?
i'm worring myself SICK over this.
i mean am i being stupid and just worrying about nothing
or could it be possible that he really is lying to me?
it wouldnt be the frist time......
god!
what do i do!!??
i just wanna break down and cry.
now i worry about where is really is and what hes really doing all the time. and when he is says hes going to talk to me and then he ignores me for an hour and tells me hes giving relationship advice to a friend....do i really believe that either???
god i hate that i dont trust him.
i try so hard to. i really do.
anyone got any advice as to what to do or say to him?
oh and work really isnt helping in the stress factor.
neither are my bills starting to come in for the car accident...
just more weight on my shoulders.
and lord knows i dont need to gain anymore weight. i'm already fat enough without that all on top...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!