ramblings
I kinda keep forgetting I'm actually at school. I have to keep reminding myself I have work to do, haha. That's no good...
Last weekend was fun.. Thursday Becca came down to visit since she had the week off from school which was nice. Friday I went into Philly to see Annuals, The Spinto Band, & Art Brut. What a great show. Afterward I came back and went to Jess's for her birthday party.. I got there real late and everyone was GONE, I don't think I've ever seen her that drunk. I felt special coming in so late, I was bombarded by hugs. Half the people had already gone home by the time I got there but it was a good crowd who was left, except for the group of sketchy scene kids from temple that we're still unsure how they were there. Saturday Daniella and I went shopping and then at night we went back to jess's to finish off the second keg... I got real drunk saturday. Sunday we did some more shopping.. and then I don't remember the rest of my day. Yesterday I did a loooot of laundry and it made me feel productive. Unfortunatly I didn't do as much work as I should have.
I kinda feel like this semester is a joke. Maybe its just my music management class, it's a waste of my time. I have a hard time putting a lot of effort and taking a class seriously when the teacher obviously doesn't put much effort into it. He doesn't teach, he goes heres an example of a project now go make one... and then the next class we go around and look at eachothers and gain ideas... and then hand it in later. But they're stupid projects, and no one is learning anything from them. Figures the one class i take that I don't need at all that I take because I do actually want to learn from it... I'm learning nothing. I'm pretty sure for my artist kit i'm just gonna do stealing december and have brandon give me one that they already have LOL i'd take one from jade tree but i can't do a signed artist, obviously. I'm technically supposed to do myself, but uh, hi i'm not a musician.
This weekend is halloween, well, next week is but festivities are this weekend. I need a costume. I hate dressing up. I think we're having a party?? I'm not even sure whats going on. Then the following week I'm gonna go home to go to some CMJ shows in the city over the weekend. Friday night is Jade Tree's showcase, i'm on the guest list. Anyone wanna come with me? I can't get you in but tickets are pretty cheap. I'm psyched to see Snowden. The line up is Panda & Angel, Young Widows, Snowden, Micah P. Hinson, Fucked Up, David Bazan, These Arms are Snakes. Then on saturday COLOUR REVOLT!! I miss themm, haha. Straylight & Chris Conley as well, and I'm pretty sure most of the brandnew council will be there. Correct? And then shortly after that the brandnew shows all follow! But even more exciting before they start i get to see stealing december at the TLA, such a big stage infront of such a big crowd, crazyy.
I dont like that the 13th is between all of this though. I can't believe it's almost been 3 years. I can't think about that with out swelling up with tears. I don't like it. I want him back. I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean I guess its good I have a lot of exciting things going on right around it to take my mind off of it but I can't ignor it. It's not fair to him to ignor it. The 13th is a monday, but I want to go home. I don't think I want to be here. Its a day just like any other day. But it's not all at the same time. I want to do something but I just never know what. I try so hard to never think about it so I don't get upset but I feel like I've been pushing it aside for too long, I feel like I'm going to lose the part of me that his him, or the part of him that is me I dont know what I'm saying I'm just rambling I guess. I just want my dad back.
One of my best friends leave for two months the next day... I don't think he realizes but thats gonna be kinda hard for me to say bye. That time represents goodbye for me.
I'm done getting myself upset now. I should do some homework.
Last weekend was fun.. Thursday Becca came down to visit since she had the week off from school which was nice. Friday I went into Philly to see Annuals, The Spinto Band, & Art Brut. What a great show. Afterward I came back and went to Jess's for her birthday party.. I got there real late and everyone was GONE, I don't think I've ever seen her that drunk. I felt special coming in so late, I was bombarded by hugs. Half the people had already gone home by the time I got there but it was a good crowd who was left, except for the group of sketchy scene kids from temple that we're still unsure how they were there. Saturday Daniella and I went shopping and then at night we went back to jess's to finish off the second keg... I got real drunk saturday. Sunday we did some more shopping.. and then I don't remember the rest of my day. Yesterday I did a loooot of laundry and it made me feel productive. Unfortunatly I didn't do as much work as I should have.
I kinda feel like this semester is a joke. Maybe its just my music management class, it's a waste of my time. I have a hard time putting a lot of effort and taking a class seriously when the teacher obviously doesn't put much effort into it. He doesn't teach, he goes heres an example of a project now go make one... and then the next class we go around and look at eachothers and gain ideas... and then hand it in later. But they're stupid projects, and no one is learning anything from them. Figures the one class i take that I don't need at all that I take because I do actually want to learn from it... I'm learning nothing. I'm pretty sure for my artist kit i'm just gonna do stealing december and have brandon give me one that they already have LOL i'd take one from jade tree but i can't do a signed artist, obviously. I'm technically supposed to do myself, but uh, hi i'm not a musician.
This weekend is halloween, well, next week is but festivities are this weekend. I need a costume. I hate dressing up. I think we're having a party?? I'm not even sure whats going on. Then the following week I'm gonna go home to go to some CMJ shows in the city over the weekend. Friday night is Jade Tree's showcase, i'm on the guest list. Anyone wanna come with me? I can't get you in but tickets are pretty cheap. I'm psyched to see Snowden. The line up is Panda & Angel, Young Widows, Snowden, Micah P. Hinson, Fucked Up, David Bazan, These Arms are Snakes. Then on saturday COLOUR REVOLT!! I miss themm, haha. Straylight & Chris Conley as well, and I'm pretty sure most of the brandnew council will be there. Correct? And then shortly after that the brandnew shows all follow! But even more exciting before they start i get to see stealing december at the TLA, such a big stage infront of such a big crowd, crazyy.
I dont like that the 13th is between all of this though. I can't believe it's almost been 3 years. I can't think about that with out swelling up with tears. I don't like it. I want him back. I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean I guess its good I have a lot of exciting things going on right around it to take my mind off of it but I can't ignor it. It's not fair to him to ignor it. The 13th is a monday, but I want to go home. I don't think I want to be here. Its a day just like any other day. But it's not all at the same time. I want to do something but I just never know what. I try so hard to never think about it so I don't get upset but I feel like I've been pushing it aside for too long, I feel like I'm going to lose the part of me that his him, or the part of him that is me I dont know what I'm saying I'm just rambling I guess. I just want my dad back.
One of my best friends leave for two months the next day... I don't think he realizes but thats gonna be kinda hard for me to say bye. That time represents goodbye for me.
I'm done getting myself upset now. I should do some homework.