Haha, me writing on this thing
How's it going those few of you who might actually try and read my journal. It's been like a million years sinse I've written on this thing. And now look, here I am at 12:30 on a Saturday night writing on this thing. What the hell, why not? Anyways, for those of whom don't know, I'm now attending Ferris State University seeking a degree in pharmacy. I left GVSU seeking a fresh start in a new place. The life I was leading at Grand Valley wasn't going anywhere and I came to the conclusion that I needed something new and better in my life. That's what lead me to Ferris. Pharmacy appeared to be a major that I could be interested in and exceed in and Ferris brought me away from the people which lead me to commit acts that I no longer wanted to commit.
Now that I'm at Ferris I find myself committing very similiar acts. Not going to class often enough, finding excuses not to do my work, drinking too often, getting depressed all the time, ect.... Over the past couple of days I came to a self realization that all of these things were happening again, and that it was time for me to claim self-responsibility and try and change the direction of my life. And this is something that I cannot do on my own, and that's why I think that I find myself writing on live journal. I think that if I write the actions of my life out, and if people I know and love read about what's going on with my life that they can help me out, and I can see in print what all is going on in my life.
One of the major changes I need to do is to free myself of alcohol. This may seem easier than what it really is. I've tried to free myself many, many times. Each and every time I have failed. Be it peer pressure, a bad day, a lapse of judgement, trying to impress people, whatever; it just has been impossible for me to break the bonds that hold me to drinking. Perhaps, however, if I open myself up to others and seek their help I can overcome this. So I emplore you, my very few readers, that if you see me you send me your words of encouragement. For this will probably be a very difficult task for me to accomplish. I have to try and stay away from the social interactions that I'm most used to, and that may set off a few people. I apoligize to those people, but I have to do this.
Man, this has been a pretty big rambling. For those of who have actually read all of this and will help me in my task, I thank you.
Anyways, that's not the only news I'll put on here. I'll try and write the "events" of the last few weeks of my life. In the last few weeks I've seen the unexpected death of my grandfather (the only person I've ever been close to who has died), sprained both of my ankles (yee-haa), found out that I have bone spurs on my right ankle that I'll probably have to have surgery on to remove, and have had trouble in school due to the stuff listed above. Sweet last few weeks eh?
Anyways, as a positive note, I am excited about this "self-realization" and hope that I can build upon it. This isn't a sad moment if my life, it is a beatiful moment (I hope). This is the turning point in the story that is my life in which I realize the errors of my ways and build upon my experiences and strive to live my life as I should and finally fullfill my potential. God, I hope I'm strong enough to follow though on everything that I just said.
Have a good one, your pal:
Randall Jacob DeLange
Now that I'm at Ferris I find myself committing very similiar acts. Not going to class often enough, finding excuses not to do my work, drinking too often, getting depressed all the time, ect.... Over the past couple of days I came to a self realization that all of these things were happening again, and that it was time for me to claim self-responsibility and try and change the direction of my life. And this is something that I cannot do on my own, and that's why I think that I find myself writing on live journal. I think that if I write the actions of my life out, and if people I know and love read about what's going on with my life that they can help me out, and I can see in print what all is going on in my life.
One of the major changes I need to do is to free myself of alcohol. This may seem easier than what it really is. I've tried to free myself many, many times. Each and every time I have failed. Be it peer pressure, a bad day, a lapse of judgement, trying to impress people, whatever; it just has been impossible for me to break the bonds that hold me to drinking. Perhaps, however, if I open myself up to others and seek their help I can overcome this. So I emplore you, my very few readers, that if you see me you send me your words of encouragement. For this will probably be a very difficult task for me to accomplish. I have to try and stay away from the social interactions that I'm most used to, and that may set off a few people. I apoligize to those people, but I have to do this.
Man, this has been a pretty big rambling. For those of who have actually read all of this and will help me in my task, I thank you.
Anyways, that's not the only news I'll put on here. I'll try and write the "events" of the last few weeks of my life. In the last few weeks I've seen the unexpected death of my grandfather (the only person I've ever been close to who has died), sprained both of my ankles (yee-haa), found out that I have bone spurs on my right ankle that I'll probably have to have surgery on to remove, and have had trouble in school due to the stuff listed above. Sweet last few weeks eh?
Anyways, as a positive note, I am excited about this "self-realization" and hope that I can build upon it. This isn't a sad moment if my life, it is a beatiful moment (I hope). This is the turning point in the story that is my life in which I realize the errors of my ways and build upon my experiences and strive to live my life as I should and finally fullfill my potential. God, I hope I'm strong enough to follow though on everything that I just said.
Have a good one, your pal:
Randall Jacob DeLange