updatey
woo, so i finally have my computer set up again. i think it has been since august, so what, that's like 9 or 10 months. whatevers though, i've definitely kicked the intertube addiction, mainly since i have steady employment (: (: (: (: but i also was consciously trying to cut back on the time spent uselessly. i've been okay, on that job front, a few months ago, end of february i was offered a job at Kohl's in portchester newyork, but after some mixups with my preemployment drug screen not being received and multiple wasted trips up route 1, i decided that when they told me my orientation would be march 30, i thought that if they really wanted to hire me they wouldnt wait over a month to begin to train me. i didn't have the time to sit around and wait. so i just said, thanks, but no thanks. and yeah i mean cmon, its kohls at 8something an hour. it's a job, but yeah, there's more i wanted to do with my life.
im writing this and i really dont know where to go back to, cuz i dont even remember the last posts on here... prolly like a year ago. lemme go check. brb. oh i was right, it was more than a year ago. the whole recap issue... i didn't even do one this year, but thats okay, i dont need to. so in the last year, not in school at concordia, worked there over the summer, not going to seminary, lived with mikelavoie for most of the last 10 months, worked parttime for the cord in september, applied at many places and got few responses, had some good interviews, some crappy ones too, did alot of random carpentry/tiling with lavoo in the ct, had a long winter, and a long december (it lasted mostly through winter), locked my keys in my truck, 2x, oh and yeah got my brothers truck in september, drank alot, drank too much, quit drinking, 2x, prolly more times, spent time with my family, learned alot about my family, went to my second funeral when my grandpa passed away, moved myself back to ct, cleaned/moved my uncle's family into my grandparents house, got a job at homedepot, worked 40 hour weeks, mowed lawns, brought out the dog, got new fishes (:
i had to end that list on a happy note. the past year, quite a tremendous year of things for the randy. out of college, unemployed, living on own, losing close family member. there's some psych test that probably would put me at risk for depression. although i still feel that i am depressed and in my own way of understanding will always be, but wil have better control of my emotions. i am in no way a better person, but i have changed alot. my understanding of many things is better. i think it is and will be hard for people to gauge their own thoughts about me because they may not be in the know about all that i am living. but i can say that i know very little about what many others are going through. that's one thing i'd really like to change, so there, take that as the resolution issue. i want to be in the know about people, not just to know, because i am selfish and want to be involved in others lives, but because i genuinely care about people and would like to be in their lives. period.
so with the months of moving and cleaning, i've really felt accomplished in that there are now 4 bedrooms at my grandparents house that are totally livable and just need to work on the first floor and the basement, well not too mention all the tagsale/garbage in the garage, but that's easily dealt with. anywho, im making this the randoms, little dude (my cousin ross) plays soccer on the weekends, can't really call it soccer all the time cuz they play games, that and he is 4. but thats something im looking forward to for tomorrow. oh and how can i forget, also cleaning at my mom's house, making that place not so evil and not livable. i have too many things in my head and i keep getting confused about what im trying to write. i want to just write about myself for a while, so deal, please?
ive read lots of books since last summer. mainly to keep from boredom from unemployment, but also to keep my brain from going off on tangents that arent healthy. i cant think of a real full list but i will attempt, i did read: long way gone, the historian, (reread) dune, (finally finished) dune messiah, children of dune, fight club, lullaby, red october, bourne identity, am reading god emperor of dune, paul of dune, also reading some LOTR when i get really bored. i really like being able to read, in school i didn't get to, not so much from being busy, but because if i was doing pleasure reading, i felt like i should be doing work instead of "wasting time" pleasure reading. totally not the right attitude and i figured that out some time ago. anyways, im gonna keep at these lengthy updates for a while. stay tuned.
im writing this and i really dont know where to go back to, cuz i dont even remember the last posts on here... prolly like a year ago. lemme go check. brb. oh i was right, it was more than a year ago. the whole recap issue... i didn't even do one this year, but thats okay, i dont need to. so in the last year, not in school at concordia, worked there over the summer, not going to seminary, lived with mikelavoie for most of the last 10 months, worked parttime for the cord in september, applied at many places and got few responses, had some good interviews, some crappy ones too, did alot of random carpentry/tiling with lavoo in the ct, had a long winter, and a long december (it lasted mostly through winter), locked my keys in my truck, 2x, oh and yeah got my brothers truck in september, drank alot, drank too much, quit drinking, 2x, prolly more times, spent time with my family, learned alot about my family, went to my second funeral when my grandpa passed away, moved myself back to ct, cleaned/moved my uncle's family into my grandparents house, got a job at homedepot, worked 40 hour weeks, mowed lawns, brought out the dog, got new fishes (:
i had to end that list on a happy note. the past year, quite a tremendous year of things for the randy. out of college, unemployed, living on own, losing close family member. there's some psych test that probably would put me at risk for depression. although i still feel that i am depressed and in my own way of understanding will always be, but wil have better control of my emotions. i am in no way a better person, but i have changed alot. my understanding of many things is better. i think it is and will be hard for people to gauge their own thoughts about me because they may not be in the know about all that i am living. but i can say that i know very little about what many others are going through. that's one thing i'd really like to change, so there, take that as the resolution issue. i want to be in the know about people, not just to know, because i am selfish and want to be involved in others lives, but because i genuinely care about people and would like to be in their lives. period.
so with the months of moving and cleaning, i've really felt accomplished in that there are now 4 bedrooms at my grandparents house that are totally livable and just need to work on the first floor and the basement, well not too mention all the tagsale/garbage in the garage, but that's easily dealt with. anywho, im making this the randoms, little dude (my cousin ross) plays soccer on the weekends, can't really call it soccer all the time cuz they play games, that and he is 4. but thats something im looking forward to for tomorrow. oh and how can i forget, also cleaning at my mom's house, making that place not so evil and not livable. i have too many things in my head and i keep getting confused about what im trying to write. i want to just write about myself for a while, so deal, please?
ive read lots of books since last summer. mainly to keep from boredom from unemployment, but also to keep my brain from going off on tangents that arent healthy. i cant think of a real full list but i will attempt, i did read: long way gone, the historian, (reread) dune, (finally finished) dune messiah, children of dune, fight club, lullaby, red october, bourne identity, am reading god emperor of dune, paul of dune, also reading some LOTR when i get really bored. i really like being able to read, in school i didn't get to, not so much from being busy, but because if i was doing pleasure reading, i felt like i should be doing work instead of "wasting time" pleasure reading. totally not the right attitude and i figured that out some time ago. anyways, im gonna keep at these lengthy updates for a while. stay tuned.