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what the fuck is wrong with me, even when things are perfect im not satisfied...i got the best girl...she is perfect for me she treats me so well....she is faithful and very trustfull.....she is legit.....she is worth it...but yet im unhappy......she is the best thing that ever walked into my life......she has the power to make me smile.....just thinkin' about her....when she walks over to me....i get this warm relaxing feeling....she makes me feel weird.....i can't describe it....im not sure what it is....i aint eva felt it before....when i put my arms around her....it feels like im dreamin'......a dream in which i nvr wanna wake up.....she is my movitation to succeed in this life.....and yet i treat her like shit...cause i wont except this as a good thing for me...y can't i just be happy....what is wrong with me.....she means so much to me i care for her more then i have ever cared about anyone......i like runnin' to the phone everytime it rings hopin' it'll be her....and when it is....an instant happiness feels my veins....is it possible to be too happy that it makes me sad.....?......cause i feel so fucked up.....i don't kno what im supposed to do or how to do anything....and its tearing me apart....i just wanna do the same that she does for me......i wanna be with her 24/7.....but i can't.....im so confused......so lost.....i gotta figure out things....i got a lot of thinkin' to do...i kno she is worth it, but am I?....i don't want to hurt her....
-Randy
-Randy