reason to parts of my insanity 101
1) I feel like a back up friend to some
Sure I'll admit it I'm a fairly busy person and yeah I bet it does get frustrating when you call me and I tell you that I have something else to do. But it's not like I enjoy telling you that. 9 out of the 10 times that I do say that i can't hang out, I'd rather be out with my friends. so that's where the phone calls stop happening and only happen when either i tell someone to call me or no one else is really around to hang out with. atleast thats how it appears to me.
2) I have no time to do anything
With band, work, school and everything that's left it's like where's my time to just sit back and watch tv? i barely have enough time to do one classes worth of homework, seriously if i had taken actual classes i'd be in deep trouble. yeesh i can't wait for marching band to be over.
3) I feel like an outer ring of Saturn with my friends.
Meaning because i have no time anymore it seems like i'm either the last to know everything or i dont even know anything. once again i'll take partial blame for never being around, but i dont wanna be around when i dont have any idea as to whats going on. i feel like a third wheel and no one likes that feeling. i used to know everything and be part of everything now its just meh i know parts of stories and am aware of pretty much 5% of everyones lives.
this all leads to me being busy, i know. i repeat it and repeat it. i just don't know what else could make me this unhappy. it led me to think about things i did that i dont want to continue with and i am not going to continue with. thoughts that haven't crossed my mind for 6 months, only when i see the well, marks.
Sure I'll admit it I'm a fairly busy person and yeah I bet it does get frustrating when you call me and I tell you that I have something else to do. But it's not like I enjoy telling you that. 9 out of the 10 times that I do say that i can't hang out, I'd rather be out with my friends. so that's where the phone calls stop happening and only happen when either i tell someone to call me or no one else is really around to hang out with. atleast thats how it appears to me.
2) I have no time to do anything
With band, work, school and everything that's left it's like where's my time to just sit back and watch tv? i barely have enough time to do one classes worth of homework, seriously if i had taken actual classes i'd be in deep trouble. yeesh i can't wait for marching band to be over.
3) I feel like an outer ring of Saturn with my friends.
Meaning because i have no time anymore it seems like i'm either the last to know everything or i dont even know anything. once again i'll take partial blame for never being around, but i dont wanna be around when i dont have any idea as to whats going on. i feel like a third wheel and no one likes that feeling. i used to know everything and be part of everything now its just meh i know parts of stories and am aware of pretty much 5% of everyones lives.
this all leads to me being busy, i know. i repeat it and repeat it. i just don't know what else could make me this unhappy. it led me to think about things i did that i dont want to continue with and i am not going to continue with. thoughts that haven't crossed my mind for 6 months, only when i see the well, marks.