fun party couple of days ago...

[rancidhawkins]

ya so a couple of days ago...friday it was maybe...we had a really fun party at kees' house. it was the usual group of me dietrich, kees, tyler, katie, matt, kelsey, gina, and some of kelseys other friends. and my brother timmy was there which i was really pumped about but we didnt talk much one on one...still waiting for that to happen. and kendra (my ex) was there and heather (my cuz) was there. it was really fun seeing both of them there and from what i remember everyone had a blast. oh ya and justin was there but he was being stupid, i barely saw him all night. i got really drunk that night and i had 2 nitros which kinda sucked cuz i couldnt sleep later that night. all in all it was a good night with a good group of people and i hope to have that same hangout again sometime soon. oh ya at the beginning of the night me and dietrich were drunk and playing the drums and it was so fun cuz we were both horrible and messing up our fills and couldnt keep time worth shit. then i tried to teach heather to keep a beat which was really funny. i know there was a lot of other stories that i just cant remember throughout the night. i also had a really nice time seeing kendra again. i havent hung out with her at all during the past month and it was good to see her and see her smile and have fun with other people there. she and katie hung out and they hit it off really well. katie kept telling me how sweet and nice kendra was. and kendra likes katie too so hopefully they'll see eachother again at some future parties and become better friends. anyway, im still listening to in flames a lot lately and i still am liking them more and more everyday. ive also been listening to the cure a lot lately cuz i think it clears my head up when i get so much thoughts in it like i have lately. ive been doing so much thinking lately, actually all today. i feel bad for matt cuz hes been here and i was kinda in my own little world today. im just trying to work out some mixed feelings that i have in my head. so much thoughts have been flooding my senses and i dont know what i want or what i should do...i think maybe i know,,,but then the next minute i have a totally different thought. i just think too much i guess...i dont know...hopefully shit will get more clear in my head and i can go back to hanging with my friends and not be so caught up in thought all day. im also looking for a new book to read so if anyone out there has any suggestions then please tell me. i like music biographies and horror stories and stuff like that. so ya, anything in that realm and im hooked. anyway, im gonna go try to sleep cuz its incredibly late and im incredibly tired.

"and i knew that to you and into your life i had to get"...i felt exactly like this song quote about someone around 11 months ago.......and now i feel it again....thoughts are so fucking confusing sometimes....meh.