She's a maneater... make you work for it
So I was thinking about it today and I really don't think that I've ever been with a guy that I had a spiritual and intellectual connection with in addition to the obvious physical chemistry. Even in my long term relationship, we definitely weren't on the same page. I had future goals and the only goal he had at the time was to beat Halo on his X-box. He also wasn't open to coming to church with me ever. Therefore, it must have been mainly a physical connection with possibly some common interests like going to the movies and out to eat. But really theres a lot of couples that like to do those things. I think that for my next relationship and possibly the next person I give myself to sexually - I am going to set higher standards. I do not want someone who just wants a booty call at 2:30 in the morning. I want someone who I share spiritual interests with and can connect with intellectually - deep conversations beyond the "how was your day" "do you like it missionary, doggie style, etc." Because I am worth so much more than these guys that I just... settle for. I'm not bragging about myself theres a difference between boasting and truly loving yourself. So what I need to do is hold out. And who knows how long it'll take - days, months, years. Right now, I really just want to focus on my relationship with God, my family and friends, and my future career. Notice the order that those things went in that sentence. My mom says that someone may come along when I least expect it. Gotta go to Reecie's bible study now - I'll probably continue these thoughts later.
~SaRaH
~SaRaH