"If you look in the sky and you don't see your dream don't worry trust me you can build it"
I actually have time to update this thing today. Because I'm bored. Soooooooooo bored. The only thing that I really have to look forward to this weekend is church tomorrow morning. Otherwise I wish that I could go home or disappear or something. Its not like I have absolutely nothing to do though. I'd just rather do something fun like go clubbing like I was supposed to do instead of doing homework. Things have been frustrating lately. On the outside, everything seems ok. I have everything materially that I need for now and I'm doing well in my classes. But on the inside, I'm a mess at least for right now. For one thing, this house may be huge and my room may have a big screen tv, queen size bed, futon, and one of those circular planet chairs or whatever you call them. But the people in the house kinda suck. Its a good thing that I'm only living here for another month. Everyone already knew each other and were pretty much friends by the time that I got here. And while they may be nice they are definitely not overly friendly. Sometimes I feel like I get those "Why are you here?" looks. The one girl that I did kind of click with is a little bit strange to me - ok maybe more than just a little bit. And the other day she basically said that people who can't pass science classes like orgo, physics, etc. should just basically drop their major and do something else. That didn't sit too well with me because I had to retake orgo 1 and I struggled with physics. So that means that I shouldn't be a veterinarian? Just because I have trouble with difficult science classes like a lot of other people I know? Hmmmmmm I guess that this is what you should expect when you go into a living situation with 5 random strangers. The only reason why I went in blind again was because I'd only be here for a month. If it was a whole year, I don't know if I could do it. I do like this room which is almost as big as our entire akers apartment but it will be nice to go back to akers next year. Its nice to have a roommate who you actually have things in common with like acting crazy and a love for going out to the clubs lol.
So another thing that is frustrating is lack of money. I started job hunting this week and applied at a couple of vet clinics. No one seems to be hiring RIGHT NOW though. They all say "We should be hiring soon". The thing is that I don't need paychecks soon, I need them now. I have a cell phone bill that I somehow have to pay in a month. I barely have enough to pay for my spot in X-lot next week. I am grateful though that I've been able to get everything I need. I should have enough food to live on for the next month besides the little things like milk. And hopefully enough gas in my car to get me through until I go home in August. Wow I feel so broke now talking about food and gas like this. Maybe it is a good thing that I'm not goin to the club tonite because I'd probably wanna buy a drink or 4 lol. Hopefully, Vetward Bound will want me to start planning for the fall again soon like in a week or so. But they are so disorganized that they never know what they're doing. I think that this all happened for a reason though. Since this summer, I have never really had to worry about money. Every job I've had was basically given to me, I didn't really have to work for it. MSU's library hired me on the spot my freshman year, Doris gave me employment papers last summer after Vetward Bound II and I started right away, and when I worked in the lab last fall Dr. Yokoyama gave me the job after one e-mail because I was friends with Carrice. And anything else I needed to pay like college tuition my mom was always willing to help me out so that I wouldn't worry about money on top of classes. So I used to spend money like it was nothing like I was just wiping my ass with it. This summer I really went overboard and spent way too much on going out to eat and buying drinks at the club. Now I think that I've learned my lesson. But thats not saying that I'm not ever gonna go to the mall again or get my sex on the beaches at the club
Another thing that is not good is the situation with Waddles. My mom told me yesterday that the cat has been peeing all over the house because she's upset from not getting enough attention. And its not going to get any better because my moms will be working 12-14 hour days soon so no one will be home w/ the cat all day. And when my mom does come home she just watches Days of our Lives and goes to sleep. So Mom doesn't think that this is really fair to the cat and she wants to find another home for her. She doesn't really want to take her to her new condo because she's afraid that Waddles will pee all over the new furniture and carpeting. So basically we need to find a good home for her. At least for awhile until I get a place that will allow cats which will maybe be the year after this one if I can afford an off campus apartment. I don't want to give her to just anyone that I don't know or give her to the Humane Society. And I do eventually want her back because I've become attached to her even though I don't get to see her often enough. My mom's friend from work Carol who loves animals and treats them like people might take her but thats not for sure. My mom did say that she would keep her until we found a loving, trusting home. So if you would like a cat or know someone that you think would give a cat a good home let me know :(
I think that I might have finally gotten rid of that one guy that I met at Tiki Bob's a couple of weeks ago. Everytime he talked to me he would ask me if he could come over and screw me. Such a turn off. I hate it when guys beg for sex. He was supposed to come up here this weekend but I haven't heard from him yet thank god. I wasn't really cool with his idea for me to dress in clothes that he would buy me "with my titties all hangin out". And his other wonderful idea for him to screw me and then one of my friends. Another turn off.
Wow I feel a lot better now after typing all of that out. Sister Jackie just called me to remind me about choir rehearsal next week. I have missed gospel choir a lot. I heart performing and singing for Jesus! lol So now time for relaxation and maybe some SATC.
So another thing that is frustrating is lack of money. I started job hunting this week and applied at a couple of vet clinics. No one seems to be hiring RIGHT NOW though. They all say "We should be hiring soon". The thing is that I don't need paychecks soon, I need them now. I have a cell phone bill that I somehow have to pay in a month. I barely have enough to pay for my spot in X-lot next week. I am grateful though that I've been able to get everything I need. I should have enough food to live on for the next month besides the little things like milk. And hopefully enough gas in my car to get me through until I go home in August. Wow I feel so broke now talking about food and gas like this. Maybe it is a good thing that I'm not goin to the club tonite because I'd probably wanna buy a drink or 4 lol. Hopefully, Vetward Bound will want me to start planning for the fall again soon like in a week or so. But they are so disorganized that they never know what they're doing. I think that this all happened for a reason though. Since this summer, I have never really had to worry about money. Every job I've had was basically given to me, I didn't really have to work for it. MSU's library hired me on the spot my freshman year, Doris gave me employment papers last summer after Vetward Bound II and I started right away, and when I worked in the lab last fall Dr. Yokoyama gave me the job after one e-mail because I was friends with Carrice. And anything else I needed to pay like college tuition my mom was always willing to help me out so that I wouldn't worry about money on top of classes. So I used to spend money like it was nothing like I was just wiping my ass with it. This summer I really went overboard and spent way too much on going out to eat and buying drinks at the club. Now I think that I've learned my lesson. But thats not saying that I'm not ever gonna go to the mall again or get my sex on the beaches at the club
Another thing that is not good is the situation with Waddles. My mom told me yesterday that the cat has been peeing all over the house because she's upset from not getting enough attention. And its not going to get any better because my moms will be working 12-14 hour days soon so no one will be home w/ the cat all day. And when my mom does come home she just watches Days of our Lives and goes to sleep. So Mom doesn't think that this is really fair to the cat and she wants to find another home for her. She doesn't really want to take her to her new condo because she's afraid that Waddles will pee all over the new furniture and carpeting. So basically we need to find a good home for her. At least for awhile until I get a place that will allow cats which will maybe be the year after this one if I can afford an off campus apartment. I don't want to give her to just anyone that I don't know or give her to the Humane Society. And I do eventually want her back because I've become attached to her even though I don't get to see her often enough. My mom's friend from work Carol who loves animals and treats them like people might take her but thats not for sure. My mom did say that she would keep her until we found a loving, trusting home. So if you would like a cat or know someone that you think would give a cat a good home let me know :(
I think that I might have finally gotten rid of that one guy that I met at Tiki Bob's a couple of weeks ago. Everytime he talked to me he would ask me if he could come over and screw me. Such a turn off. I hate it when guys beg for sex. He was supposed to come up here this weekend but I haven't heard from him yet thank god. I wasn't really cool with his idea for me to dress in clothes that he would buy me "with my titties all hangin out". And his other wonderful idea for him to screw me and then one of my friends. Another turn off.
Wow I feel a lot better now after typing all of that out. Sister Jackie just called me to remind me about choir rehearsal next week. I have missed gospel choir a lot. I heart performing and singing for Jesus! lol So now time for relaxation and maybe some SATC.