hey
well i know i dont update anymore! sorry brian this is my attempt to reconcile my lj....its the day before thanksgiving and i ditched school. for today and the next 2 days i have no school or work....this is a rare occurence in my busy ny life. i have hw to catch up on and sleep too. i may or may not go out, i am prett y indifferent to it either way, i just want to relax and do nothing. I miss everyone and i even miss california a little. i am still very glad i came out here but it gets a little lonely sometimes. i have a few good friends out here but most of the time i am hanging out in random bars or lounges with ramdom people and i have ablast but i usually never go back to the same place or hang out with the same people again. its adventure and ecitment but no security or stability. and i love adventure and wouldnt trade it for anything but someties everyone wants a little comfort in the stability and consistency of life. there is a quote that goes something like when you are out on an adventure all you want is to be safe at home but when you safe at home all you want is to go on an adventure. that somewhat explains my dilemma. but overall i'm good, there is always the ups and downs and lately i have been a little more down than up but that just means that soon i'll be back to more ups than downs. i can't wait to come visit my friends and family in december and brian is coming back to new york with me for new years and we are going to have so much fun. i am glad to ring in the new year with him. and lj readers will get a third person perspective on the grandeur of new york from brians experience. well i'm done for now but will try and update more consistently. perhaps that will stabilize my moods, here we go.......................