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ok, this is the second time that I'm typing this up because I had it all nice and finished, and then my internet did a bleeper oner thingy, and now it's all gone! SOO!
I have made a few self discoveries about myself, some of them are kind of personal, but then others involve wonderful people like you, so I thought I'd ought to share.
1.)Some of you have decided that I am what you call, "anti-social". I do not think that I am. I am completely justified in my reasons to not talk to people. One of them is, that I decided at homecoming that I am not a crowd person. If I had a choice between a party with loud music and lots and lots and lots and lots of people, and like going over to a friends house, I would go with the friend. I avoid the band room during lunch because there is too much commotion. There are like 80 million people in there and it's always loud and something is always going on. In the lunch room, it's unavoidable, but I can still block out the wierdos and then there are just the 8 or so people at the lunch table. I like that I'm in the very most back of the block room. There's the wonderful Emily, and the blood-pressure-raising, running-around-screaming-like-an-escaped-insane-person-being-oh-so-tempting, Alex. Will's not bad, but I'm convinced that sitting next to Alex will cause me to loose my mind before the quarter is over!But yeah, i'm done. Comment back if you feel that I am indeed one of these 'anti-social' cases.
2.)Self-Confidence=0. I thought It would get better after I got over the shock of district band, but it hasn't. I have states in a mere 5 days, 2 hours, and 38 short minutes, and I wish I knew if I deserve to make it, or that It's a waste of everybody's time going. And this Bergman not knowing my name business, It's diffidently a self-confidence-buster-uper. It's understandable that he can get confused when it's just me, but when It's me and Renard, why can't he get it straight?! I worked soo soo hard to make sure that I wasn't a disappointment, and to make sure that I actually deserve to be in the Wind Ensemble, but for him not knowing my name...it's like what I've done, isn't worth crap. I'll bet ANYONE 10 bucks that he hasn't forgotten Belgium's name, that he won't forget Matt Price's name, and that I will always be "Melinda Hirt"
3.)Have I mentioned how wonderful all you guys are?! I know this is sophomore year, and like everyone is under this "OMG i'm going to explode" attitude, but EVERYONE has been awesome. I think this "omg" attitUde is about to get worse as MAY 3rd gets closer and closer, but hopefully spring trip will be a nice get away.
There actually was a better third one before, but I can't remember it now...so I thought I would praise all of you!
*~*~*Keep in mind that I'm not at all 'depressed' over anything. The Bergman thing is getting on my nerves, but I'm not in a 'jump off the bridge' mood yet.I'm actually quite cheerful, and on the 6 hours of sleep I got last night, I am quite enthusiastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have made a few self discoveries about myself, some of them are kind of personal, but then others involve wonderful people like you, so I thought I'd ought to share.
1.)Some of you have decided that I am what you call, "anti-social". I do not think that I am. I am completely justified in my reasons to not talk to people. One of them is, that I decided at homecoming that I am not a crowd person. If I had a choice between a party with loud music and lots and lots and lots and lots of people, and like going over to a friends house, I would go with the friend. I avoid the band room during lunch because there is too much commotion. There are like 80 million people in there and it's always loud and something is always going on. In the lunch room, it's unavoidable, but I can still block out the wierdos and then there are just the 8 or so people at the lunch table. I like that I'm in the very most back of the block room. There's the wonderful Emily, and the blood-pressure-raising, running-around-screaming-like-an-escaped-insane-person-being-oh-so-tempting, Alex. Will's not bad, but I'm convinced that sitting next to Alex will cause me to loose my mind before the quarter is over!But yeah, i'm done. Comment back if you feel that I am indeed one of these 'anti-social' cases.
2.)Self-Confidence=0. I thought It would get better after I got over the shock of district band, but it hasn't. I have states in a mere 5 days, 2 hours, and 38 short minutes, and I wish I knew if I deserve to make it, or that It's a waste of everybody's time going. And this Bergman not knowing my name business, It's diffidently a self-confidence-buster-uper. It's understandable that he can get confused when it's just me, but when It's me and Renard, why can't he get it straight?! I worked soo soo hard to make sure that I wasn't a disappointment, and to make sure that I actually deserve to be in the Wind Ensemble, but for him not knowing my name...it's like what I've done, isn't worth crap. I'll bet ANYONE 10 bucks that he hasn't forgotten Belgium's name, that he won't forget Matt Price's name, and that I will always be "Melinda Hirt"
3.)Have I mentioned how wonderful all you guys are?! I know this is sophomore year, and like everyone is under this "OMG i'm going to explode" attitude, but EVERYONE has been awesome. I think this "omg" attitUde is about to get worse as MAY 3rd gets closer and closer, but hopefully spring trip will be a nice get away.
There actually was a better third one before, but I can't remember it now...so I thought I would praise all of you!
*~*~*Keep in mind that I'm not at all 'depressed' over anything. The Bergman thing is getting on my nerves, but I'm not in a 'jump off the bridge' mood yet.I'm actually quite cheerful, and on the 6 hours of sleep I got last night, I am quite enthusiastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!