Nov 18, 2005 22:11
I HATEEEEEEEEEE the world RIGHT NOW. Yes in this very fucking moment I want to kill everything. And yes I'm coming to my fucking livejournal to bitch about it because its the only thing that won't fucking switch everything around and make it about themselves. I can't believe how self centered like 90% of the people around are. "omg me meme" shut the fuck up. I think if anyone except like Leanne the heidi and emily and andrea crew and kirk and a lot of other peole.. um...if almost anyone came to me right now with a problem in person and i didn't fell that it was legitimate to be complaining about, i'd fucking choke them. end of story.
KNOW WHY
because
and this is all just today. other shit has been piling on top of this every other like minute
i woke up at SIX. rushed around until my dad who was helping me out a lot this morning brought me to the bus stop and that was a huge help
mostly good school day except the normal things that irritate me, but they're livable
i got sarah at school and walked with her a little and her dad brougt me home
so i get home and i clean. for THREEEE HOURS.
a.) so my dad wont bitch at me
b.) just so he'll be happy
c.) his girlfriend was supposed to come over tonight
I didn't go to Kirk's today like I always do because of this reason that my dad wanted me to be here and whatever. so yeah
I fall asleep aroundddd 6:30 7 or som ething
I wake up to the sound of my door being POUNDED on and my dad comes in i'm half asleep and he'sl ike 'have you been smoking!?' uhh no. I see him from the light of the TV that he's holding a cigarette pack wrapper. i bet that he found that outside. and he said it was from marie downstairs anyways. i dont fucking smoke cigarettes, pot crack anything ever.
THEN hes like mailey's (his girlfriend) x wont pick up the kids, so she isn't coming over. there goes my night anyways because now it's like 8:45. I'm not going grocery shopping and then to my friends house past 9:30, sorry.
so yeah. SMOKE?! MAILEY?! IM MAKING YOU SO MAD YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOURSELF?!'
SO I go back to sleep for about 10 minutes. My dad didn't say anything about grocery shopping. SO I go in the kitchen and the table is a fucking MESS. And in replacement for everthing we DON'T have to eat in the morning there's a box of captian crunch on the table along with a bunch of other shit.
He didn't ask me if we needed anything. Two days ago he did but the list grows as you actually have to consume nutrience into your body, you know tO LIVE.
so the milk is bad
we have no bread
the cereal is gross.
we have not a lot of pasta
no more sauce for pasta
one package of meat left
no microwavables
im running out of shaving cream
i need new eye liner
the water in the fridge is running out
no more like sandwitch meat
no snacks
no butter
no cream cheese
no fruit
no cottage cheese
I JUST WANT TO FUCKING EAT ALRIGHT?!
and its not like we can't goo or we can't afford it or whatever its just that i feel like it keeps getting put off because he doesnt fucking feel like going.
you know neither do i but uhh i dont feel like doing dishes, laundry, making your bed, cleaning your shit off the table, cleaning your shit out of the bathroom, cleaning your shit out of the living room, vacuuming, taking out the trash when you say you will but oh you're pressed for time at work aww>:0, i dont feel like ever going to school or coming home and doing homework or baby sitting children. I FUCKING DO IT AND IM 16. I know my dad deals with shit he doesnt want to but hi get over it.
im so pissed off and i hate that livejournal will be the one to listen to this story.
im disabling the comment box because i really do think this is pathetic.
i lvoe everyone but im in a fuck off mood.
UMM HELLO?! seriously what the fuck im so mad.