Posting before 12 am is impossible
First thing I want to say is I have finally watched the last episode of Merlin, and I'm somewhat proud to say I didn't burst into tears.I think part of the reason why I didn't cry was because I knew what to expect. I knew that Arthur was going to "die" and that Merlin was never going stop waiting for him. I have read fanfictions that have bits of spoilers of the last episode. This is probably like the fourth or third time I've mentioned this review, but this fan has definitely cut deep into my fangirl heart and this particular review did spoil major events of the ending, but she/he? nearly turned me into a blubbering mess. I mean she went into a lot of detail and picked apart their relationship to the very core, which is ultimately a deep connection they have with each other, to simply put it, love. A unique kind of love. A different kind than the relationship Arthur has with Gwen, or one Merlin had with Freya. It's something special that only they truly understand and feel. Other people may look at their relationship and will find something very deep and different but they probably can't comprehend how much of an impact they have on each other. In the end it was only them, with each other. Merlin and Arthur, until the very end. And Merlin kept his promise. He promised to protect and serve Arthur, until the very end, and he did. And he will continue to in the future, when he is needed once more. In the end, Merlin was the one to hold Arthur and to be able to have their final words shared to each other, not Gwen, not Leon, not Gaius, but Merlin and Arthur Pendragon, with all the truth surfacing, and being able to be completely honest with each other to the end. I don't think Arthur and Merlin have any regrets in particular. If any I think Arthur would have wanted Merlin to trust him and confide in him, but in the end he understood why it was crucial for Merlin to keep it a secret. As for Merlin, he may feel that he has failed his King and his duty, but he fulfilled his destiny. His destiny of straying by Arthur's side until his end, and that was exactly what he did. And just like the fan from the review said, and I have mentioned this previously, that Merlin and Arthur didn't say goodbye. Instead Merlin finally received Arthur's gratitude and appreciation,
It may seem incredibly silly to analyze fictional characters and what not, but if you watch it, you would (most likely) understand why so many people are invested in these fictional characters. They portray the kind of ideal loves and friendships that are incredibly rare and, quite frankly, only exist in romance novels-movies. I'm still hoping for a spin-off series, sequel, movie (though I highly doubt it), anything!
On another note, I am very tired and nervous for school. I'm thinking about borrowing text books and possibly getting ahead of my advanced math classes... not sure how that will turn out, but my mom has been hounding me to prepare for next semester.
Also, I've been thinking about working out, nothing to rigorous or intense, just enough so that I can begin a routine. I feel so unhealthy, and I can feel myself getting bigger and bigger by each passing day. I want to be productive with my time during summer. I don't want to just lazy around and get chunky. Though, I have gone to summer school, but I don't want that to be an excuse for me to get really lazy and wake up at 5:00 o'clock in the afternoon -_- I also really want to hurry up with my fanfics and original stories and get some progress done with them already. I don't like them just sitting on my computer screen...
I want more books too... I'm craving a good book. I bought "Beautiful Disaster" by Jamie McGuire a couple of weeks ago. It's really good, and has a lot of the classic modern cliches, which I love, and I really enjoyed it. "The Paris Wife" and the last two books of the "Fifty Shades Trilogy" are books I want (And like I mentioned previously in a past post, even though "Fifty Shades of Grey" was a big disappointment, I heard that there is a more romantic plot in the last two books rather than the first one). I still have not read "Love Unrehearsed", heck I haven't even finished the first book "Love Unscripted" or finished reading "The Time Traveler's Wife", two books which I have borrowed from my friends. So I guess those will keep my occupied for a while. But I still get into a mode where I just want to read something new and captivating.
P.S. I also really really like this boy band called "Before You Exit". I was going to write a post about them 3 weeks ago, but I completely forgot. I first saw their music video "I Like That" at like 7 or 8 o'clock in the morning and I was hooked. Their songs-- original songs, though they do covers, their songs are so unique and very very catchy. I hope they become big, like really big. I'm not obsessed with them like the way I was/still am with "Super Junior" but I think for rookie's they deserve their time in the spot-light. They shot their first music video this year, but have done covers and songs on youtube, previously. I'm not familiar with them, I don't even know how many guys there are in the band, but I think their close/best-friends and a couple of them are siblings. Yeah I really like them, and Oliver "Olly" Murs,