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Kalan seems to think that writing shit down will make me feel better somehow.. I told him I've done enough of that for a psych class I took, but he wouldn't shut up on the phone until I agreed. He said he's going to talk to Mouse about coming to visit, be it with Mouse or not.. That maybe we could use his help..
I can't see how we would.. I think I have enough people giving me advice as it is, be it with Darius' higher-power intellect and superiority complex, Arianna's consoling but condescending attitude and my parents' overall lack of correct emotions.. I think they sometimes believe that maybe their son's a murderer, that I covered up Jeanette because.. Because it makes sense.
It makes sense on CSI Miami, maybe.
I hate that show.
Kalan's been trying to get me to talk about specific things all before Gina was taken.. Jesus, now he can't fucking figure out what he wants to talk about.. But I know where he's trying to pry into. I know him, I know what he does.. and I don't feel like giving into it right now. I need to find her, but I keep zoning out into this.. mentality of demands. I always tunnel vision.. I nearly hit an old lady while she was driving earlier today. Apparently, a beat cop saw it and phoned my family.. They're keeping me in over-night, so here I am.. wasting my time talking about the problem rather than getting anywhere on finding her.
God I miss her. I turn around expecting to be able to talk to her about her being missing.. I know it doesn't make sense but.. I'm so used to her being there, so used to her listening.. So.. Fucking difficult now.
And her kidnapper hasn't called me recently. That's about to kill me..
I can't see how we would.. I think I have enough people giving me advice as it is, be it with Darius' higher-power intellect and superiority complex, Arianna's consoling but condescending attitude and my parents' overall lack of correct emotions.. I think they sometimes believe that maybe their son's a murderer, that I covered up Jeanette because.. Because it makes sense.
It makes sense on CSI Miami, maybe.
I hate that show.
Kalan's been trying to get me to talk about specific things all before Gina was taken.. Jesus, now he can't fucking figure out what he wants to talk about.. But I know where he's trying to pry into. I know him, I know what he does.. and I don't feel like giving into it right now. I need to find her, but I keep zoning out into this.. mentality of demands. I always tunnel vision.. I nearly hit an old lady while she was driving earlier today. Apparently, a beat cop saw it and phoned my family.. They're keeping me in over-night, so here I am.. wasting my time talking about the problem rather than getting anywhere on finding her.
God I miss her. I turn around expecting to be able to talk to her about her being missing.. I know it doesn't make sense but.. I'm so used to her being there, so used to her listening.. So.. Fucking difficult now.
And her kidnapper hasn't called me recently. That's about to kill me..