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so im feeling better i suppose, just fyi, the last entry was about my mom/my family, but im not gonna get into that. so sat, i went shopping with danielle and her friend rachael, watched the royal tenennbaums, and the big lebowski, and spent the night at dani's. sun morning we got up at 7:00 to be at church for the next 4 hours. it wasnt that bad, sadly enough i was reading walden for a good percentage of the time; the other part i was downing coffee like a maniac. then we came home, grazed around her house for a while, then i went home. last night we made dinner, and my mom and i watched six feet under, our tv addiction. fabulous that show is. ive also been packing, i dunno what im gonna do, i overpack like nobodys business, im trying to avoid anything more than the 2 duffels and train case i have right now, but it doesnt look like thats gonna work so well. oh well. im kinda looking foward to this trip, not just because of the time off from my family, but because i hoping itll give me a chance to work some stuff out. i really wanna come back with a more balanced brain, and i hope thats how itll turn out, ill need that before junior year. enough about that, tonight im supposed to go see napolean dynamite with erik, that should be fun. since i doubt ill be updating tomorrow, heres my good bye to everyone for the next 11 days. hope yall have a good week and a half, and ill see you when i get back. commies, have fun at prep day, and buy a yearbook, were poor we need the money. itll be really good this year, as you should know if you read angela's lj, but ya. do it! you wont regret it! later guys.
I'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on none the less
& there's nothing to cusion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.
Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you & I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
& you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you.
Phone calls from further away
& messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart
So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
& pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
& head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.
I'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on none the less
& there's nothing to cusion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.
Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you & I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
& you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you.
Phone calls from further away
& messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart
So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
& pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
& head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.