May 14, 2005 17:56
I feel like I'm in one of those movies about the heroic life of some individual or other. This is the kind of movie they try to create a sort of framework around the actual important events: the first part of the film involves some happy-go-lucky no-name who for some reason or other has to spend time with this old man who is really quite boring nowadays. The movie throws big hints at you to make it clear that this old man used to be quite interesting, but when asked about his past life he either gives an obvious lie or is very vague. So the no-name character is really just waiting for the old man to come clean, because the old man's story is probably an interesting one.
So I'm the old man, and I've got to mope and be silent for a little while longer. However, I feel like I should say something about what I'm going to be doing in the next year or so.
- I am not going to study abroad in Budapest, Hungary, next fall. I'm expecting to do it in the following spring instead. It's not at all clear that come August I'll have good mental health, and why waste the study abroad experience when you're depressed?
- I'm going to be staying on campus for most of the summer, up till any time between July 21st and August 15th. I'm going to be doing math research with one of my professors. I'll probably come home after that point to visit for 2 weeks to a month.
- During the summer I will continue with Therapy and Medication, the two pillars of Western treatment of depression (and other mysterious debilitating maladies). I feel like I have made very little progress over the past six months, but then again, I don't really see an alternative.
- I am not having a good time.
-Andrew