i'm a fuckin idiot
man today blowed. i was fuckin wasted when i got to school today. i wish i could have spencer back, but i fucked up bad when i broke up with him... i was fuckin drunk i didnt know what the hell i was doin i got an angry drunk, and i got pissed off, and i broke up with him. got to school and there was kyle, askin me out, still drunk, so i said ya. now i want spencer back but ya...dont think its gonna happen. started cryin in 5th again... i thought i got all my crying done last night...but no...so i started crying again. and i tried to commit suicide last night but it didnt work...i dont feel like writing all the details...i just cant shake this feeling that i will never get back the best thing i ever had. i mean, i dont blaim him cuz i wouldnt take me back either. i was a bitch. but gettin an angry drunk is no excuse i fucked up and thats all there is too it. why am i always the one that ends up in heart break and shit. i just dont get it. o wait, its cuz i SUCK AT LIFE!!
steph
steph