(no subject)
Why is it I struggle with loneliness when I have a relationship with the greatest God there ever was and is?
Why is it that when I'm in a room with the people I love most in this world, I can still be lonely?
Why is it just moments after I say goodbye to the guy I've fallen in love with, that I miss him like I haven't seen him in years?
There are moments when I am fine and the next minute I get so down sometimes that it's hard to hold back the tears.
I've been struggling with those varying emotions this week. Every time I come back from being around a lot of people for a few days, I experience intense loneliness. Sometimes it's so overwhelming even the sound of my friend's or family's voices isn't enough to make it go away.
I'm a little lonely right now, mainly because it's a Friday night and everyone I call a friend here is busy and others I call friends are far away. Oh how I miss the social days at college sometimes.
Please for those who read this, don't think I'm in a deep depression. I'm not. But there are times I feel like this and then it goes away for a time.
On a more positive note, I've had a good week at work overall. I've been getting a lot of stories out of my beat which is an answer to prayer. I had a great time in Houghton Lake with Len. It was cool to meet his Aunt Jerry, Uncle Bob and his grandma. We didn't do much but hang around his aunt and uncle's house but that was fine with me. It was nice having the break. The next time I see Len in a week, I'm going to the U.P. to see an air show with him at KI Sawyer.
I also had a chance to help out with what's called a backyard Bible club for church. I taught kids who were three years old up to 12 years old a verse and helped out with it on Wednesday and Thursday. I wasn't able to be there the first two days. I was so nervous before I taught the verse but it all went well. I found a new pleasure in helping the little ones. Granted, this doesn't mean I want to babysit, but I didn't expect I would have as much fun as I did. I definately want to help when they have it again in August.
Other than that, not much else to report here. I am looking forward to my one day off tomorrow. I have to work Sunday night.
Laters my peeps.
Why is it that when I'm in a room with the people I love most in this world, I can still be lonely?
Why is it just moments after I say goodbye to the guy I've fallen in love with, that I miss him like I haven't seen him in years?
There are moments when I am fine and the next minute I get so down sometimes that it's hard to hold back the tears.
I've been struggling with those varying emotions this week. Every time I come back from being around a lot of people for a few days, I experience intense loneliness. Sometimes it's so overwhelming even the sound of my friend's or family's voices isn't enough to make it go away.
I'm a little lonely right now, mainly because it's a Friday night and everyone I call a friend here is busy and others I call friends are far away. Oh how I miss the social days at college sometimes.
Please for those who read this, don't think I'm in a deep depression. I'm not. But there are times I feel like this and then it goes away for a time.
On a more positive note, I've had a good week at work overall. I've been getting a lot of stories out of my beat which is an answer to prayer. I had a great time in Houghton Lake with Len. It was cool to meet his Aunt Jerry, Uncle Bob and his grandma. We didn't do much but hang around his aunt and uncle's house but that was fine with me. It was nice having the break. The next time I see Len in a week, I'm going to the U.P. to see an air show with him at KI Sawyer.
I also had a chance to help out with what's called a backyard Bible club for church. I taught kids who were three years old up to 12 years old a verse and helped out with it on Wednesday and Thursday. I wasn't able to be there the first two days. I was so nervous before I taught the verse but it all went well. I found a new pleasure in helping the little ones. Granted, this doesn't mean I want to babysit, but I didn't expect I would have as much fun as I did. I definately want to help when they have it again in August.
Other than that, not much else to report here. I am looking forward to my one day off tomorrow. I have to work Sunday night.
Laters my peeps.