January
So I lied. The email that my mother sent me telling me I'm a horrible child for being passive aggressive in the ways in which she knows best really did bother me. I've been thinking about it off and on since she sent it. I know that I am not the person she thinks I am. In fact, my mother doesn't know a thing about me. Expecting this letter to have any truth in it is really quite silly. But I'm really good at beating myself up, so I did a lot of that whilst driving, thinking, and listening to Fleetwood Mac for the first time. Really though, what is helping me get over this is the support that I'm getting from my friends, my dad, and my sister. Whenever I tell people about it they assure me of my wonderfulness and that its really my mother that's the screwy one, not me. That feels really quite nice. And its helping me get through all this crap.
The game plan is to move out mid-January. Get another job. Be settled in by the time school starts. I really don't want to add the stress of moving with the stress of school, so I am hoping to move out before that. My dad said that he'll cosign a place for me, which is good because I have no credit, and that would make it nearly impossible for me to get a place. I asked for and received a book entitled The Money Book for the Young Fabulous & Broke by Suze Orman for Christmas. It has a lot of information about finances given in a very understandable way that will help me a lot when I'm on my own. For example, it tells me a few different ways that I can start to have some credit, which really is fabulous.
Things Devon will be doing in January:
Moving
Getting another job
Jury duty, ewww
Co-facilitating the first Opus all-staff conference call
Starting Spring semester
Falling in love with life, for the umpteenth time :)
I am going to be busy...
Oh, Christmas Eve I went to my old church's midnight service. When I was growing up, I went to a Congregationalist Church in downtown Long Beach. I really love it there. I'm still sick of some of the people that go there, but I really do enjoy the services. I haven't gone in a really long time because I don't really like the minister there, but his sermon Christmas Eve was really what I needed to hear. It was about the inner peace of Jesus, how that kind of inner peace it is vitally important to our lives and how it is possible to cultivate peace even in the busiest of times. It helped me to be at peace with my life, the good parts, and the not so good parts.