All This Time
1.04a.m.
I just got home from work 5 minutes ago.
This new year hasn't been all that great so far. I've been working late on weekday nights, going back to the office on weekends... been tired and snappy, and that has led into stupid arguments with friends which puts me in an even worse mood. Maybe it's the rainy weather. Maybe it's the long hours. Or the lack of sleep. Sigh. A bit of everything, I guess.
I feel like I've been stumbling about blindly the last two months. Just doing what I need to do, trying to block out everything else. It seems so pointless sometimes, coming home to a house that's already asleep, with no one to share my day with. It wasn't always like this before - I had goals and motivations, I had something to work for and work towards. But those dreams and ideals somehow seem so far off in the past... I think it was a different me who was dreaming those dreams.
The latest song in my head over the last few days... the question it asks is rather ironic in a way. But the song keeps coming to me anyway at the oddest of times - like halfway through dinner with my colleagues in the pantry, when I suddenly stared off into space, or when I closed my eyes for a minute later on at 11.30pm while looking through some work. I think it's going to be a while before I recover from this. In the MTV of the song, one of the images towards the end reminded me of a promise I never kept. And it hit me so hard that I cried the first time I saw it. Or maybe I was just tired... ... I think I need to stop lying to myself and face up to reality; and to remember that work is not a cure for anything.
I like Tiffany songs. If Love If Blind. Could Have Been. And now this. Simple tune, simple lyrics, but they somehow always manage to capture what I feel inside.
ALL THIS TIME - TIFFANY
All this time
I knew someday you'd need to find
Something that you left behind
Something I can't give you
All these tears
And like a light love disappears
But hearts are good for souvenirs
And memories are forever
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
One more kiss
Even though it's come to this
I'll close my eyes and make a wish
Hoping you'll remember
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
Say goodbye
Apart we'll make another try
But don't be sorry if you cry
I'll be crying too
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
What will I do now with all this time?
I just got home from work 5 minutes ago.
This new year hasn't been all that great so far. I've been working late on weekday nights, going back to the office on weekends... been tired and snappy, and that has led into stupid arguments with friends which puts me in an even worse mood. Maybe it's the rainy weather. Maybe it's the long hours. Or the lack of sleep. Sigh. A bit of everything, I guess.
I feel like I've been stumbling about blindly the last two months. Just doing what I need to do, trying to block out everything else. It seems so pointless sometimes, coming home to a house that's already asleep, with no one to share my day with. It wasn't always like this before - I had goals and motivations, I had something to work for and work towards. But those dreams and ideals somehow seem so far off in the past... I think it was a different me who was dreaming those dreams.
The latest song in my head over the last few days... the question it asks is rather ironic in a way. But the song keeps coming to me anyway at the oddest of times - like halfway through dinner with my colleagues in the pantry, when I suddenly stared off into space, or when I closed my eyes for a minute later on at 11.30pm while looking through some work. I think it's going to be a while before I recover from this. In the MTV of the song, one of the images towards the end reminded me of a promise I never kept. And it hit me so hard that I cried the first time I saw it. Or maybe I was just tired... ... I think I need to stop lying to myself and face up to reality; and to remember that work is not a cure for anything.
I like Tiffany songs. If Love If Blind. Could Have Been. And now this. Simple tune, simple lyrics, but they somehow always manage to capture what I feel inside.
ALL THIS TIME - TIFFANY
All this time
I knew someday you'd need to find
Something that you left behind
Something I can't give you
All these tears
And like a light love disappears
But hearts are good for souvenirs
And memories are forever
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
One more kiss
Even though it's come to this
I'll close my eyes and make a wish
Hoping you'll remember
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
Say goodbye
Apart we'll make another try
But don't be sorry if you cry
I'll be crying too
All this time
All in all I've no regrets
The sun still shines, the sun still sets
And the heart forgives, the heart forgets
But what will I do now with all this time?
What will I do now with all this time?