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Ever had one of those days where you keep on reading and re-reading the same line of the same paragraph on the same page for more than twenty minutes and still nothing goes in? My mind keeps drifting off into thoughts of happier times and little things which suddenly seem so fresh and clear and vivid. My emotions keep wrestling for control, and it makes me realise that I'm really quite weak as a person. My heart has this heavy yet empty and feeling which kicks in whenever I'm alone and simply refuses to go away. All of this is my own doing, I know. I do want to think carefullly about what I want, but with all this homework to handle and all the thoughts and emotions spinning around inside, it's really impossible to think rationally or focus on anything for long. I really don't know for how much longer I can keep this up. I thought I did pretty okay yesterday. Until I started to cry over lunch at the Raffles City food court, that is. It's just tough. I have to make some progress on this soon. Otherwise I'll just be wasting my time and emotions. I'm so screwed for class today. Damn it.