in secret, i adore you

[ramble_on_radio]

i love that maybe we thought we were friends, and i can seriously say one little sentence, and then our friendship is fucked up. screwed over. not the same as it was a week before. i don't understand how you can flip the cards so easily without being delt them. i'm in shock that you can let one little thing blow up a friendship, or what i thought was to be a friendship. i don't even consider it a friendship anymore. a two week aquantiance to hey maybe i'll see you outside of school, thing happened and i thought we were cool. then all the sudden you take something in a totally different way than it was said, being offended by nothing other than some weird emotional practice that girls do, and you suddenly have nothing to say to me anymore, no more phone calls to see what's up, no more stupid texting. no wonder you sit at home all the time, because you let stupid little things ruin something that shouldn't be able to be ruined that easily.
what is up with girls and blabbing things out of their emotional needs. i don't have a strong sensitive emotional part of me, but when i do rarely get emotional i'll bust out with what the fuck i think and why the fuck i think it. i am some sort of alien to my papa's girls. i was there the other day and the girls were feeling useless, and i sat there and i said, what? i don't feel useless cause i know in thirty minutes or so i'll be workin my ass off. and the girls look at me and tamera says "michelle, you arn't female." why is it girls take everything, every little action, word, gesture, or criticsm so personally?! it's like that wasn't even directed twards you and all the sudden you are applying yourself to it? i don't understand why girls do it...

i found a four leaf clover.
the only luck it's brought me is bad luck.

i'm stick stuck on my extremems, exept it's so much harder than it seems.