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i hate everyone again haha. i just need someone to love ya know. a girl that is more then a friend and more then someone i see more then every once and a while. why is it so easy to hang out with dudes all the time and not girls. girls keep busy i guess. they got to so they can bring home tha cheese and all that. i got fired the day before yesterday and today got rehired again i wonder how its gonna work out this time. hopefully good brandon keep puttin his neck on the line for me. shit though i dont even want to care if it works out or not cause i dont want to be workin all the time making all this dough if i got nothin but myself and the house and just my friends to spend it on. just my friend hehe. i mean i love my friends but i'd like another person that is closer then my friends and i see just as much as them. or at least close to it. .... and at the same time i can be sexual and all with cause im definitly not with my friends and dont want to be. but i mean after so long bein unsexual and all its like hard to get back into the sexual groove again cause its so long ya know. i like hugs too, and pecks cause i dont peck my friends thats just wierd. sheesh is that too much to ask. im just a big whinner ignore the smoke.