A Correction to make

Oct 16, 2008 23:19

I have a correction to make, courtesy actually of Valyen. Valyen brought something more to my attention after the LJ comment she left online that ended up resulting in an intense and long conversation between me, her, Daza, and the person I was alluding to in that post. The matter brought to my attention was that they were being entirely dishonest with me. The result of this matter is that they came clean with me, Daza, and Valyen as such (even if indirectly for Daza and Valyen) and are not really lying to themselves so much. I guess in a way I am disappointed, but in another way I care about that person enough to try and still be their friend as they try to still figure out who they are. I feel good in a way I guess for helping them in that, even if the way it came about was harsh. I think they will be better off in the long run. Not to say there is no hope for me, but that I am taking it easy and I have some great friends, and some friends surrounded in their sorrows right now who have distanced themselves as such. There is still somebody who loves me it would seem, and we do have a passionate connection, but that is a different story and a different person. I admit I feel somewhat disturbed by this perhaps, but that given time I may adjust to accept it better on a mental level rather than just in heart. This is why I sought a primary mate, someone to settle down with, but times change and the winds blow in many ways. I have to try to let my sub-conscious see this the way my conscious does, to relax, and rest well and feel free within again.

thoughts, truth, myself, love

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