on a downer...
meh - well this isn't going to be the happiest of updates but here I go...
Job front - I applied for two jobs and got two interviews, one went ok the other much better. Just a waiting game now...
JSA front - have signed on once, due to sign on again on tuesday - still haven't got any money. Finally got a reply to my letter of complaint about 2.5 months after I sent it so need to write another letter of complaint as im not happy with the answers they gave me.
had family come over this weekend - purposely made no plans as i haven't see these guys since the engagement so thought it'd be nice to catch up - and it was. just that im made to feel like a second class worthless piece of crap by my mother who thinks its great to diss me when people come around - cheers love. kinda wish i hadn't been around and then at least i wouldn't have got any abuse.
since friday i have just been so fucking sleepy - drove back from hatfield at around 830 in the morning, tried to sleep when i got back to MK as i knew i was tired but couldnt. i then went out for lunch and tried sleeping after that but still not much joy - watched a bit of tv and finally drifted off, for all of about 15 minutes after which my mum screaming my name woke me up - i had to help with dinner. helped for all of 10 mins and she could see i was tired so she sent me to bed - by this time i was just not in the mood for sleeping. guests arrived later on that eve, we had dinner and by 10pm i was yawning constantly but didnt want to sleep as i was pleased they were there. finally went to bed around midnight and got up around 10.30 this morning even though i was still so knackered - everyone had been up since 8!
still tired now as i write this...gonna make some dinner soon and then settle in front of the tv.
this week coming up will be cool - first time in ages where i feel i dont have to be in ten thousand places at once and having to make plans days in advance and having to drive miles and having to live out of a bag. i've decided im doing far too many miles so im laying off the car usage - not to mention i was nearly in a very fucking scary/badass crash the other day (all my fault). only day im busy is tuesday in which i have to go sign on at the job centre, have a telephone interview and go to car maintanence in the evening.
life really is very non-existant at the mo - just feel like im in limbo not knowing where to go/im going next which is never any good for a person like me. i cant be arsed to see my friends or doanything tbh. so i wont. all im doing this week is going to the gym - if i feel like it.
booked tickets for the subways though which is all good....unfortunately not in the best area but at least i get to see them - should be a fucking awesome night and i cant wait!
just to depress me further - i am now currently over 2K in debt....that is such a fucking scary thought - and that is only my overdraft and credit car bill, never mind the 3K+ i owe my dad for my car...
Job front - I applied for two jobs and got two interviews, one went ok the other much better. Just a waiting game now...
JSA front - have signed on once, due to sign on again on tuesday - still haven't got any money. Finally got a reply to my letter of complaint about 2.5 months after I sent it so need to write another letter of complaint as im not happy with the answers they gave me.
had family come over this weekend - purposely made no plans as i haven't see these guys since the engagement so thought it'd be nice to catch up - and it was. just that im made to feel like a second class worthless piece of crap by my mother who thinks its great to diss me when people come around - cheers love. kinda wish i hadn't been around and then at least i wouldn't have got any abuse.
since friday i have just been so fucking sleepy - drove back from hatfield at around 830 in the morning, tried to sleep when i got back to MK as i knew i was tired but couldnt. i then went out for lunch and tried sleeping after that but still not much joy - watched a bit of tv and finally drifted off, for all of about 15 minutes after which my mum screaming my name woke me up - i had to help with dinner. helped for all of 10 mins and she could see i was tired so she sent me to bed - by this time i was just not in the mood for sleeping. guests arrived later on that eve, we had dinner and by 10pm i was yawning constantly but didnt want to sleep as i was pleased they were there. finally went to bed around midnight and got up around 10.30 this morning even though i was still so knackered - everyone had been up since 8!
still tired now as i write this...gonna make some dinner soon and then settle in front of the tv.
this week coming up will be cool - first time in ages where i feel i dont have to be in ten thousand places at once and having to make plans days in advance and having to drive miles and having to live out of a bag. i've decided im doing far too many miles so im laying off the car usage - not to mention i was nearly in a very fucking scary/badass crash the other day (all my fault). only day im busy is tuesday in which i have to go sign on at the job centre, have a telephone interview and go to car maintanence in the evening.
life really is very non-existant at the mo - just feel like im in limbo not knowing where to go/im going next which is never any good for a person like me. i cant be arsed to see my friends or doanything tbh. so i wont. all im doing this week is going to the gym - if i feel like it.
booked tickets for the subways though which is all good....unfortunately not in the best area but at least i get to see them - should be a fucking awesome night and i cant wait!
just to depress me further - i am now currently over 2K in debt....that is such a fucking scary thought - and that is only my overdraft and credit car bill, never mind the 3K+ i owe my dad for my car...