After talking to two sawi friends...
I'm bored but I don't feel like being productive tonight, so I will blog. :D
Don't you just hate it when you suddenly find yourself waiting for his text/IM, or waiting for the moment you'd see him today, may this meeting occur on a daily basis? It's that sudden moment of, "shet, gusto ko na ata siya" but you just don't want to believe it.
How are you sure if "you've fallen in like/love" with someone? Is it that sudden realization (just as what I had tried to described in the earlier paragraph), or a slow, entrenching process that at some point, you would "just be sure"?
What I dislike about the first option is how funny it is to think that you probably have spent some significant time with that guy as a friend, not thinking that it'd end up this way, but it did. And you did fall in like for him, quite suddenly at that. He's probably still the same guy, with the same attitude, but there was a point where you realized you actually liked him, though he was the same as before!
I'm guessing cases like these are rooted on attachment. You become attached to a person, so you become used to him being there, and that's where the liking part begins. The moment he's gone, bam! You suddenly realize you like him.
But how about those cases where you haven't seen or talked to each other for a long time, and yet one or both of them is still madly in love with the other? I've seen and heard about these cases, and I wonder, what keeps them going?
The second is the more "acceptable" and "reliable" one, since it doesn't seem as impulsive as that first option of sudden realization. Again, constant exposure is at work here and day by day you might realize that there's something to that guy. But then again, there must be some point there that you've reached that mark where you're "just sure." Perhaps gradual conscious realization is at work here (as compared to the sudden realization, which is perhaps gradual UNconscious realization in disguise), but there's still that defining point of you being "sure na sure ako!" How would you know?
Of course, in this blog-slash-release-of-thoughts-of-a-friend-of-sawi-friends, I've made a lot of generalizations, mostly based on what my friends have shared. Also, who says we have to be sure about liking someone anyway? Perhaps all my questions don't even matter.
In the end though, liking someone is still hard and complicated. I guess we could never be sure. *shrugs*
P.S. Why do girls like talking about their love lives anyway? :\ It's the automatic topic, I swear. Barkada outings pa lang... :))