xfield3hockeyx: i'll try to bring some mixers like sprite
October 16, 2006
I type in Sinjab for dictionary.com
and I get-Did you mean Snow Job?
Senior year blows. Yeah sure, I'm the oldest.
Yeah sure, I'm the COOLEST. Yeah well I sure
don't have friends. I miss walking to school
and meeting up with the NEIGHBORHOOD KIDS. The
lack of intriguing beautiful people cause an
INJUSTICE! I miss getting excited to see interesting
people in the hallways. The reality is--there are
no interesting people in the hallways.
Fairhaven High is dead.
I love Nick Perrone.
Making fun of the abundance of lame (scene) people
permits entertainment for about five minutes and
then I realize how much I miss last year.
I can not wait to break free of the entire apathetic
atmosphere. But do I want to break away?--Now I'm not
qualifying Fairhaven High kids here. Can I leave
this consumed circle of people who don't care enough
about each other to pop each other's pimples? Who not
only are engrossed in their own paranoid lives, but
everyone elses? A circle of drug addicted teenagers
who have no idea what to do with themselves but to
over analyze every incident we have with one another?
I'm at fault.
And yet if we weren't so indulged, what would are
pathetic lives amount to. But hey, emotional overly
sensitive children from fucked up back grounds need to
do something right?
Me and Kathryn are friends. LIKE A TEAM.
As bad as I feel about rejecting someone...
My conscience just won't allow John Gibbs to touch me.
I don't have time to be self-conscious anymore.
I don't think I'm emotionally capable of having a boyfriend anymore.
targetxgroup: apple bobbing in a barrel filled with light beer
Did anyone realize I haven't updated since April.
I will always be in love with Beth Wright.
Zack Lobo needs to stop writing about every incident
we come in contact with each other in his livejournal.
Like, it's creepy.
I decided I'm going to go to school for art. Whether I'm
good or not is in debate. The fact of winning high school
artsy superlatives does not prove sorts. I can not really
see myself not being lazy enough/remotely interested in any
thing to do with academics. Awkward sentences for awkward people.
"I'm considering going to art school"
"I won't support that. I won't pay for it."
"Why not?"
"Honestly, I don't think you're good enough."
I'm still in love.
STILL HOLDING ONTO THE PAST!
It's been so long I can't even
distinguish if it's a joke or not.
so xmechanical: im so mad that
im eating pudding. AND IM ON A DIET
I've realized over and over and over again
that my father will be the only one that can
direct me any where to compassion. I've admitted
this to you Livejournal many a times. I want to
admit that I'm absolutely in love with you but I
never will. And my infatuation with the most humble
chaotic minded person I've ever met, haunts me.
Oh, to be 17.
This summer was a stroll down independent high way.
You can't stroll down a high way. Manhattan? Time Square?
Some of the best times of my life?
To adventure!
To lack of experience!
To the optimism I'll never have.
I'm betting Halloween is going to be amazing.
I type in Sinjab for dictionary.com
and I get-Did you mean Snow Job?
Senior year blows. Yeah sure, I'm the oldest.
Yeah sure, I'm the COOLEST. Yeah well I sure
don't have friends. I miss walking to school
and meeting up with the NEIGHBORHOOD KIDS. The
lack of intriguing beautiful people cause an
INJUSTICE! I miss getting excited to see interesting
people in the hallways. The reality is--there are
no interesting people in the hallways.
Fairhaven High is dead.
I love Nick Perrone.
Making fun of the abundance of lame (scene) people
permits entertainment for about five minutes and
then I realize how much I miss last year.
I can not wait to break free of the entire apathetic
atmosphere. But do I want to break away?--Now I'm not
qualifying Fairhaven High kids here. Can I leave
this consumed circle of people who don't care enough
about each other to pop each other's pimples? Who not
only are engrossed in their own paranoid lives, but
everyone elses? A circle of drug addicted teenagers
who have no idea what to do with themselves but to
over analyze every incident we have with one another?
I'm at fault.
And yet if we weren't so indulged, what would are
pathetic lives amount to. But hey, emotional overly
sensitive children from fucked up back grounds need to
do something right?
Me and Kathryn are friends. LIKE A TEAM.
As bad as I feel about rejecting someone...
My conscience just won't allow John Gibbs to touch me.
I don't have time to be self-conscious anymore.
I don't think I'm emotionally capable of having a boyfriend anymore.
targetxgroup: apple bobbing in a barrel filled with light beer
Did anyone realize I haven't updated since April.
I will always be in love with Beth Wright.
Zack Lobo needs to stop writing about every incident
we come in contact with each other in his livejournal.
Like, it's creepy.
I decided I'm going to go to school for art. Whether I'm
good or not is in debate. The fact of winning high school
artsy superlatives does not prove sorts. I can not really
see myself not being lazy enough/remotely interested in any
thing to do with academics. Awkward sentences for awkward people.
"I'm considering going to art school"
"I won't support that. I won't pay for it."
"Why not?"
"Honestly, I don't think you're good enough."
I'm still in love.
STILL HOLDING ONTO THE PAST!
It's been so long I can't even
distinguish if it's a joke or not.
so xmechanical: im so mad that
im eating pudding. AND IM ON A DIET
I've realized over and over and over again
that my father will be the only one that can
direct me any where to compassion. I've admitted
this to you Livejournal many a times. I want to
admit that I'm absolutely in love with you but I
never will. And my infatuation with the most humble
chaotic minded person I've ever met, haunts me.
Oh, to be 17.
This summer was a stroll down independent high way.
You can't stroll down a high way. Manhattan? Time Square?
Some of the best times of my life?
To adventure!
To lack of experience!
To the optimism I'll never have.
I'm betting Halloween is going to be amazing.