letter to kerry that will never get to him
Dear Kerry,
This is not a bad letter. Its not a complaint...not at all. There is not one thing that i have to complain about you. I guess its just a letter so you understand more things. Today while leaving my house you said "I hope you know that i wasnt ignoring you" or something along the lines of that. I undersatnd that you weren't ignoring me. I understand that you are extremely uncomfortable in my house. I dont blame you at all! I hate it, i admit that. I dont hate you for it...i just hate that you feel that way. I feel bad that you feel that way. And if you or i could ever think of some way to change that, i would do it in a heartbeat. This is why i rarely ask you to come over. I think this is the first time you have been over in a couple weeks or more. I respect that you feel uncomfortable at my house. I realize taht you are worried that my mom will hate you, or that she will find me hugging you or something, and like forbid you from the house or something. Yea, i worry about that too, and i am paranoid about it to a point. I respect that, or atleast try to. i hope that you feel that i am as well. i think i lost my train of thought. i just want you to know that i understand how you feel, even if it takes me a little while to realize it/ remember it. in the end, im not mad or dissapointed in you. i love you so much and i feel horrible that my family gest in the way. i guess my biggest fear is that my family tears us apart. if that ever happend, i would never be able to forgive myself.
love, sindhu
This is not a bad letter. Its not a complaint...not at all. There is not one thing that i have to complain about you. I guess its just a letter so you understand more things. Today while leaving my house you said "I hope you know that i wasnt ignoring you" or something along the lines of that. I undersatnd that you weren't ignoring me. I understand that you are extremely uncomfortable in my house. I dont blame you at all! I hate it, i admit that. I dont hate you for it...i just hate that you feel that way. I feel bad that you feel that way. And if you or i could ever think of some way to change that, i would do it in a heartbeat. This is why i rarely ask you to come over. I think this is the first time you have been over in a couple weeks or more. I respect that you feel uncomfortable at my house. I realize taht you are worried that my mom will hate you, or that she will find me hugging you or something, and like forbid you from the house or something. Yea, i worry about that too, and i am paranoid about it to a point. I respect that, or atleast try to. i hope that you feel that i am as well. i think i lost my train of thought. i just want you to know that i understand how you feel, even if it takes me a little while to realize it/ remember it. in the end, im not mad or dissapointed in you. i love you so much and i feel horrible that my family gest in the way. i guess my biggest fear is that my family tears us apart. if that ever happend, i would never be able to forgive myself.
love, sindhu