Missing a Friend
Anyone thats been reading my journal for a while knows that my friend david is gone. I lost him to the military tuesday. He is now at Fort Benning Georgia. I will be keeping everyone updated on how he is doing as long as he keeps us people back in his home town updated. I dont know what ot do without that guy. He was my partner in crim we did just about everything together. i know that we did everything important together. it was just the way things worked. I miss him a lot. I know that mad does too. For those of you out there who knew david well you know kinda what i am going through. we all go through this a different way and its harder on some of us than on others. Remember im here for those who need to talk. Its not much i know but im here. NO one will ever be able to replace him but ill have to learn to move on without him. THis reminds me of raistlin and caramon from the dragonlance books. they were like one person together. the two of them complemented the other so well that they were basically perfect and that was the way that david and i were. i know ive said this before but i miss him. but anyway raistlin and caramon finally split paths and go their separate ways and caramon has to get over everything and learn to move on without his brother. David may not be my blood brother but he was a brother to me deeper than blood. They say that blood is the greatest bond and i dont think so. David and I are closer than being of the same blood can be. We are held together by ideals that we believe in. We are held together by the never ending love. I am man enough to say it. I love that guy. David if you ever read this I love you man. Rember a compass and a conscience so you dont get lost at sea. For years ive been driving around in the car with him playing name that tune and i find myself sitting there getting ready to ask him what that song is and hes not there. I find myself relating to a lot of songs in a different way now. A lot of songs remind me of him and the times that we had together. 7 years of memories all packed into a 4 minute song. Its getting really hard to write this as the tears are falling now. its a good thing i took keyboarding i guess. anyway without david i dont know who to turn to for help. Not mental help but physical help. there are so many things that i relied upon him for. Like DeMolay. I feel lost without him in ritual work. I feel lost without him in management detail. He knew everything i didnt and i knew the things that he didnt. like i said earlier it was like we were one person sent here to compliment eachother. I talk to people now and its like all the stories that i have are about me and him doing something togehter. but that has all changed now. No longer can it be me and him. he has gone a separate way than me. Ok well i guess its time to move on to other subjects like my vacation. I am going to go to kansas on the 5th of july and im not sure if i am going to regret it or not. Im really worried that the reason i am going wont even notice me with her boyfriend around. Dont get me wrong i dont mind the boyfriend im happy for her am i jelous probably. but thats just the way i am. She hasnt been talking to me much lately. I talked to her tonight for about 30 minutes and that is the longest that ive got to talk to her for about 2 months. ever since she was up here for prom. Anyway ive been working on some stuff at the Boys and Girls Club. IM doing Lego Robotics. Its really great to tell you the truth. i feel really bad as i didnt get the time to go over there today to work on my lesson plan for matt while im gone. i hope he will be able to figure it out he isnt the brightest guy int he world. i want to get some pictures next time i go there and have some fun with it. Other than that im pretty much not doing anything. well i guess im working on this game called Nation States. its pretty fun. anyone interested in owning their own country should join and come join me at Penguin Island. Contact me if you need help getting started. Anyway im gonna sign off now dad should be getting home soon and we are gonna get some breakfast and then get some sleep and go to my aunts to help her move.