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i guess its been a while since i updated and rightly so ive been pretty busy with everything going on but that doesntr eally matter because ive got no one to really share it with. everthing i do for myself is meaning less because the people that matter to me dont even understand what it is or why its important to me. like i know that no one really cares that im a select master in the york rite. it doesnt matter to anyone but me. How about that im about to get a blue honor key or im entered in the gossamer wings program. no one cares and no one understands. to tell ou the truth i would trade all of those things for once chance to feel that someone truely loves me. not as a friend but as something more. i cant find anyone who is within 100 miles of me that likes me as anything more than a friend and it sucks. i care about a lot of people and especially people like Lacey whom incidentally i got to see today and that made me happy. anyway no big deal i guess